lurvefreak

2009-10-07T20:37:00.001+08:00

oh boy. i just feel like crying.
things are crumbling.
bye world

2009-08-31T20:58:00.000+08:00

I LOVE CORAL PRIMARY!!!<3
I WANT TO TELEPORT BACK TO THE PRIMARY SCHOOL TIMES:D
its the best man!(:

went to coral today! i saw sammi. cool man. i brought her things by faith!(:
then the 6/1 people are really very funny(:
its like all of a sudden we all like become very young when we get together again.
like tan songkai took a book frm the library in school.
avester wanting to take a photo of himself with the background like as though we are going on an excursion.
then we started to gather back all the memories etc.
miss the school canteen,feel like a primary sch kid going back to buy drinks.
the other peeps were laughing at the teachers' board.
looking at the maths quiz board.
recalling back the past about what happen in school.
finding our teachers and talked.
with mr yeo forgetting all of us. giving the guys who came over with the "who are you?" look.
with mrs teng forgetting my name. insisting that joelle did change.
with mrs goh still remembering us.
with the sch vp asking where are we from.

headed down to find mrs yah. had lots of fun crapping.
even gt to see people that i wanna see.
and ha! nicola came! after disappearing for 3years!!!!:D
14 people to coral,
16 people to mrs yah's house.
jokes and laughters filled the whole house.

in total,i must say,TODAY ROCKS MY DAY!
though it was time-consuimng,but at least 5hours out of mugging and just spending this kind of quality time with friends that you hardly have contact with. isnt it worth it?:DD

2009-08-05T13:22:00.000+08:00

yayyY! i am on my last day of MC!(:
heheh,one thing i love about MC-can wake up lateeeeeee(:
and u can have one whole day enjoying uurself.
BUT. i dont like it cause i will find myself wasting one whole day at home 0:
and i cant do ministry!):
life feels so different without having to do ministry man.
it feels so...meaningless?
luckily there is msn for me to chat with people,handphone to sms
yayyy! and also my big Daddy to go through this together with me!(:

2009-07-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

God i feel so discouraged. hai
why are all these things happening?
why isnt there no fire in my sheeps' life?
it hurts me when i see my sheeps are nt serving You with me.
You are such a great God.
Such a great friend
why dont they understand that You love them?
why are their hearts so cold and hard?
God melt this block of ice in their hearts.
I've taken them for almost 7months?!
but there are no improvements.
discouraged.
God why why why
why why isit lidat?
why why why
i think that i failed as a shepherd.
my follow-uppees are much more responsive.
but sheeps? none.
why why why
this 7months,what have they been doing?
wasting their life away with some worldly stuffs?
just cause of those temporary stuffs and they are not serving a God who loves them for who they are?
choosing temporary stuffs over eternal glory and joy?
hai. why dont they understand?
i feel so failed.
i know that there are no condemnation.
but how can i take it for 7months?
i dunno.
Your strength. Your word.
thats the answer. without Your strength and word,i think i would have gave up long time ago
thankyou God that i can be able to sustain for that long.
the compassion You had instilled in my heart. especially for my sheeps.
the vision. its so near yet so far.
what isit God?

haiiiii

2009-07-16T22:48:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOSH
ALICIA WEE IS ZI-HIGHING WITH ME THROUGH THE PHONE!!!!
AHHHH
ALICIA IS NOT MAD.
ALICIA IS NOT MAD.
ALICIA IS NOT MAD

hahahhahahaahah

2009-07-10T18:02:00.008+08:00

yayyy! i'm here to update about my whole entire week!(:
TGIF!-THANK GOD ITS FRIDAYYYYY!:D
hahaha,well, here's how my week goes...
MONDAY-planned to study. but end up last minute gt DMM.
at first i must confess,i was kinda willing to go cause i wanna stay home to study.
but thank God i made the right choice to go down! and i really really had alot alot of fun!(:
went to escape and joined the eb1 people. to observe how they support and bind the cg together.
sat wet and wild and pirate ship with cherylmine!(: she was all the while laughing at me ><

i sat at the back when playing wet and wild. then pirate ship we sit together at the extreme end. scary!=x

TUESDAY-had no plans at all.
kristal yang had tuition.
so at first was eating with alicia!(:
then suddenly at about 2.55 lidat jessica called!
she was super random can. then tell me she's at eatz culture.
had a great time talking with her and met my shepherd!

she was meeting jess mahs(:

WEDNESDAY-CAREGROUP!:D

suppose to meet elizabeth and xinyun and parkway but cant cause preparing for cg.

sorry=/

caregroup was FUN!:D

for forfeit,shermaine and xinyun played the sausage and orange game respectively!(:

still remembered what is this glass jar about?

unscrewing our jar to let God's blessings overflow in us(:

yeah,then cabbed home cause it was late for me=x

OH,and earlier on in school,alicia spammed me with a poem,here it is(:

Every tear that had to fall from my eyes

Every day i wondered how i get through the night

And every change life has thrown me

I'm grateful for every break in my heart

I'm grateful for every scar

Some pages turned

Some bridges burned

But there were

Lessons learned

Aint it cool?:D
THURSDAY-SHEPHERDING WITH MY LOVELY SHEEP!:D
hehehe,gt xiangying to help me with it.
rushed down straight after school.
i cant believe it. i walked out of sch in 5mins under the hot sun!(:

hop on bus 15,and talked to a tkgs girl(:

then after reaching mjr,met xiangying and my sheep.

my sheep wanna walked to eunos mrt cause she said its still early!

So we all travelled down to tampines together.

my sheep went to meet her friend. xiangying and me go and find shermaine who was at starbucks. xiangying then went for her shepherding while i stayed to study with shermaine.at night xiangying came my house.

FRIDAY-had compre timed practise.

it was kinda cool. gt to talk abit with cuilin.

gt to catch up with amanda,jiahui and irene when we met on the bus.
i'm currently fasting from a meal a day. for all my sheep(: for ess(: for personal growth(:

I'll use the lunch time,12-5pm,to do ministry.

i will confirm be hungry,but thats where i gt to learn to stay away frm temptations(:

when i end sch early,i'll do ministry. and be more sensitive to the Holy Spirit.

if i end sch late,i'll make an impact,make a difference.

keep me accountable yeah(: (if anybody is even reading this ><)

2009-07-05T19:40:00.003+08:00

hai. the moment i saw one of my people's blog. i broke down.
my heart sank.
i felt that i lost hope.
i had so much faith that she will come back to Christ and serve with me.
but upon seeing those photos,my heart broke.
for that moment,i was thinking that its impossible for that vision to come to past.
i thought that it wasnt coming from God at all. i am just making up one.

but as the songs played on my itunes, God immediately hit me hard.
that the vision is not what i am imagining,but its truly God-given.
It was spoken clearly that from the camp unstoppable,my convictions are nt going to die down.
once it die down,i will die.
because they are going to be what God will move so much more this semester.

"So I wait upon you now with my hands released to You,whre a little faith is enough to see mountains lift and move."
"For all Your sons and daughters,who are walking in the darkness,You are calling us to lead them back to You."
"For as long as I shall live,I will testify to love."

I need to wait upon Him. God's words are clear. I need to wait upon Him.
Wait upon. not being so impatient and keep wanting God to bless straight away.
But to keep praying and waiting upon God's hands to move.
God is calling me.
I'm called to be!
Its an honour that its called by God to lead the lost back to Him.
Why didnt i appreciated that but to break down straight?

SAVIOUR KING
And now the weak say I have strength
By the spirit of power that raised Christ from the dead
And now the poor stand and confess
That my portion is Him and I'm more than blessed
Let now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for your Son's holy name
And with the heavens we declareYou are our king
We love you Lord, we worship you
You are our God, you alone are good
You asked your Son to carry this
The heavy cross our weight of sin
I love you Lord, I worship you
Hope which was lost, now stands renewed
I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the savior king
Let now your church shine as the bride
That you soar in your heart as you offered up your life
Let now the lost be welcomed home
By the saved and redeemed those adopted as your own
I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the savior king

this song hits me big time.
few sentences to sum up.
God loves us. Jesus died for us. God bought us with His son's blood.
what more to ask for?

Yes God,for as long as I shall live,I want to testify Your love.
its not because that I'm forced to.
But Your love and mercy never fails to overflows my heart.
It overflows me. How big your heart is to forgive such sinner who keeps making mistakes repeatedly. Yet You still love me.
I want to know God and make God known.

2009-06-30T21:42:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL HAS STARTED!:D
initially,i was praying for an extended holidays.
but i guess,i finally know why it is God's will to start school at the same time.

When school starts,THE TEST WILL BEGIN.
whatever that we responded in camp.
are we still gonna do the same old thing?
or are we going to change and do the new way?
or are we going to start to change because we're excited,but after awhile,we'll lose interest and revert back to our old ways?

i guess this is what it is.
Distractions. bound to come.
Are we going to let it come in and mess our life?
Or are we going to do something about it?
How are we to handle them?

are we going to do things and make decisions based on our own?
or are we going to change and do things God's way?
hearing God's voice and be sensitive to the spirit?
or to kick the Holy Spirit one side and do life our own way?

my convictions from camp. its a strong one i must say.
out of the 5/6 camps i've attended since 3 years ago.
usually my convictions are like just a naturally rising mode because its just AFTER CAMP!
and after being excited for weeks,it'll slowly die down.
but God renewed it everyday.
God gave me questions everyday to think through.
different types each day. for me to rack my brains and think through.
even lessons,i'm thinking about it.

my visions in camp. they have not fade. it seemed like i have it each and every day.
its clear. not any blur. i guess its something strong that God is putting in my heart.
camp-unstoppable. was a straight visionary camp for me i must say.
visions for 2 sheeps,3 follow uppees.
vision for the world.
vision for the people in the schools. how much they needed God.
vision for my own life.
how many visions i've recieved?
honestly speaking,i dunno!

each day,God gives me thousands of questions.
i know that i cant find the answer to each and every single one of them just in once day.
Thats why God asked them differently each day.
God gives me creative ideas.
God asks me questions like"Your sheep is facing this this this. What're you going to do?"
"You wanna tear down the walls. what are you going to do?"
"Whats your strategy?"
"With your family's pressure,what're you going to do?"
"Sacrifice my church that I've died for,for your studies?"
"what are you going to do about this busy schedule of yours?"
"How are you going to chase the people?"

i dunno God! seriously. anybody reading these. i dunno what am i suppose to do.
thats why i gt to SEEK God right? to find Him.
to go deep deep into his presence,lay down my pride,and ask God,help me.
God,give me wisdom. Anoint me.
Outreach and Discipleship. Isn't it what is hitting me strongly in my heart?
Your love is changing me,calling me.
Outreach and discipleship. I cant do this without love.
my love is limited. but Yours is not.
Love must be the motivation behind this whole entire thing.
dont you think so?

without love,how can u learn to love the people out there who do not know God?
If you dont have God's love overflowing your cup,how wil you wanna outreach?
Same for discipleship.
without love,how to love your sheeps/follow uppees?
when they give you problems,without love,how're you going to love them?
how're u going to accept and love them for who they are without love?

God's children have a different way in viewing school.
Its a battle period.
The harvest is here!
Making an impact!(:
shining for Jesus!

The world? views school as tiring.
have to wake up early,have to study.
meet friends,spend time in shopping malls.
those with boyfriends or girlfriends?
its a good chance to see each other 5 times a week.

burdened.

2009-06-04T20:40:00.003+08:00

hai. i am kinda handicapped now because of the pain in my neck (not referring to anybody). my neck is seriously pain.

well,this week was an extension week! during holidays! lessons are so much more fun than usual. there are lessons ending at 11.30!:D 12.30!:D. lectures,especially AMATHS is fun! with note passing within our cliques,talking and having fun with one another!(:

just that photos dont have baoyi inside! ):

oh,how i wish this fun,joy and laughter can continue. lessons can be the same-short and sweet (:

ha! chrystal! dream on!

well,attended CLC2 on monday and wednesday. i decided to blog about my learnings after attending the full course(:

gee. stupid rachel is like watching ninja turtles! she kept asking me to watch. but no way! no more procrastination chrystal teo!

i think God has been repeatedly trying to knock on the door of my heart. and yupp,the never-give-up God has entered with a word that spoke to me-SACRIFICE

yupp,these few weeks were filled with many people talking about sacrifices.

I just need to sacrifice television shows to revise and do my holiday homework.

I just need to sacrifice television shows to do my ministry stuffs.

I just need to sacrifice television shows to talk to God,have a deeper prayer life with Him.

I just need to sacrifice television shows to connect with people.

I just need to sacrifice talking on the phone to revise my work.

I just need to sacrifice talking on the phone to grow in deeper worship with my Daddy.

I just need to sacrifice some of my sleep to do things that I know I have to get it done.

I just need to sacrifice my computer distractions to do meaningful things.

I just need to sacrifice my computer distractions to start doing on my holiday homework.

I just need to sacrifice wordly distractions to feed myself,to grow UP in the Lord.

Matt 5:16

In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.

IN SHORT:
I just need to sacrifice all that i can,that is unecessary, for the kingdom,to be a salt and light.

2009-05-24T16:58:00.005+08:00

1Cor 15:58-stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord,because you know that your labour in the Lord is not in vain.

hehe.. i want to show how this is so true in my life.
exams are over!(:
during the exam period,i was telling some people that i had no motivation to study, and its literally 0%.
this midyears was not like the past exams. it didnt give me the feeling that i get during common tests. i know that i have to study and that its all for the glory of God. but somehow i guess it just tires me out ):
during all the memorising papers,i had no choice because i know i have to study(memorising mahs!) but after the continuous 2 days of pushing myself(forced to do it the feeling),after memorising my stuffs for ss and egeog,i totally feel like giving up. it dont give me the 'study' feeling. i feel like hanging out in shopping centres and not studying at all. i was worn out and it seem like a drudgery in studying.

In the day,i continued to give myselves fully in ministry-meeting people etc. (cause guitar is over!) in the night,after meeting people,i become tired. i become a couch potato,watching tv,playing computer. but nonetheless,i still continue talking to contacts,connecting them etc. caregroup days ended quite late for me esp the travelling time taken.

I was sharing with teh one day before my physics paper(something that i've never ever passed in my life before) i told her how i had no motivation at all to study anymore. how literally i just wanted to give up. i did the practise papers given and realise that i dont even know how to do simple easy ones! i took 1 and a half hours just to do 40 MCQs! teh kept encouraging me. she kept telling me to jiayou and not give up. she told me how she was cui3 but after praying,she was fine etc. she kept saying that she was my push factor but i still stood neutral and had a 'sian' feeling. at night,i had physics tuition. totally MOODLESS.

but still,God never fails to be faithful to me(:
1Thess5:16-18. Be joyful always. pray continually. give thanks in all circumstances for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
I wanna give thanks!(:

English-always failed. but each time,because of the 5bonus marks for doing corrections,i just passed. like abt 51. this time,God graciously lifted me up away from this word called FAIL in english and enable me to pass my english with the help of the correction marks(:

Emaths-my standard still maintained at a B3 (: despite my answers being so weird,my anyhow applying of formulae,those questions that i thought that i will just lose marks for the WHOLE question,God so generously give me marks for the parts that i NEVER expected to get marks.amazing yeah.

Amaths-though it dropped from an A to a B4. at first become quite emo in the lecture hall taht anngie and alicia kept asking me if i am okay.After cooling down, i thank God for letting me learn from the stupid tough questions that i didnt know how to do at all. despite my answers being so weird,my anyhow applying of formulae,those questions that i thought that i will just lose marks for the WHOLE question,God so generously give me marks for the parts that i NEVER expected to get marks. (:

Chem- the paper was tough=/ everybody was complaining. i didnt expect to pass. i went to tell Anngie the first thing after i came out of the exam hall-"die already lah,sure fail one". Alicia,Kristal who are in combined science,asked both of us how isit. and we both went like fail liao la fail liao la. but when i recieved my MCQ,i was thankful that i passed!(: though i failed my paper 2,but nevertheless, God made something that i NEVER expected to HAPPEN! i JUST PASSED!(: 60/120. miracle lorh. I'm just so thankful that jesus is in my life.

Physics-i had never ever passed before in my entire life remember?(: Initially,Anngie kip saying she scared she fail but hope she'll pass. Frankly speaking,i was reallyyy scared too ): but after which God just gave me this strong assurance that it'll be fine! His voice was so tangible. "hey my child,dont worry,I'll move. Just expect a miracle." was just a simple 2 sentences. Of course I'll doubt God at first. I was like telling God"God uh,i think you must be kidding me. I kept failing my sciences. Chem i think quite tyco one lorh. But still physics. A pass? nah,its impossible."
So,during distribution,at first,i dont dare to look at it. When i look at it i was so happy that i was so joyful. Immediately,i was like"THANKYOU GOD!" Its just so incredible to know that my big papa is bigger than all these exam questions. I can feel God's hands laid upon me,saying"see child?" It reminded about what Jacq said. Sometimes we just keep asking God,but it just never happen. When it happen,we'll forget but God will remind us. Its like so true!;DD

Literature-okay la. standard dropped=/ frm B3-B4. my paper 2 first question i studied,wrote 4 pages long and i only get 13/25. second question didnt study,2pages long 17/25. dumb rite?=/but its okay!

ss-still failed. perhaps God's perfect timing to bless isnt there yet. yupp,i shall continue to learn and improve!(:

egeog-haha,maybe some people dont know my story. The day before geog paper,i studied natural vegetation until 8pm at night when i decided to give up that chapter cause its content heavy. I went to study rivers and coasts. end up during the paper,i dont know how to do the rivers and coasts question. So me,being very 'smart' go and do the natural vegetation question. But when i received my results,my natural veg that question,i gt a 14/25!:D even higher than the development question that i studied for it. tehee xD cool horh? this is how my cool Papa moves!(:

yupp! wanna encourage every child of God out there to continue to jiayou for ur papers! no matter how bad or good,give thanks! for at least we have a great Daddy that we can look to to seek comfort. someone who is 24hours with us always!(:

2009-05-17T14:54:00.004+08:00

yayy! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO FIONA TEH!!!;D
hahas.yup,birthday celebration was a success! we made her play blind mice! teehee.
then suppose to be shermaine be,but we say"the shepherd must help the sheep!"
after that all of us run out of the room,leaving me,leow and teh in the room.
i go distract teh.
leow quickly past sharmaine's card in the book.
the rest prepare light the cake.
yayyyy! (:
after that our dearest SHARMAINE affirmed her shepherd!!!
it was so funny and all of us were laughing at her.horh?(:
hahah..CELESTINE CAME FOR CG!(:
super happy!(:
after cg i headed home while teh,shermaine,leow,jess went to eat ice cream tgt!

peektures;D

on saturday(yesterday)
Adeline
Serene
Huiwen
Amanda

guess what? THEY CAME FOR SERVICE!(:
hahahah. took photos with them. but i dont have all ):
so dont want upload :P
yupp,after that had Dennis and Eve!
learned about the vision of the East
we must have a revival in our hearts!
God!!! its been a long time i have a revival in my evangelism.
Empower me once moreeeee!(:

gee.. masquerade is coming!(:

2009-05-11T12:00:00.003+08:00

yayy! on thursday,met up with xiangying and then we saw cao2 guo2 hui1! he's so handsome! together with some xin1 hua1 duo3 duo3 kai1 person! yupyup. after that headed down to the airport to find shermaine! she's studying alone!): so went down to pei her and i studied midsummer! saw jiangpin and choi chi min! at terminal 2 macs! aaha. after which took 53 back to white sands pri to take the calculator frm eugene ang! then headed home lorh(:

friday! thanks ah bern! she is suppose to meet genevie and her friends at COMPASS POINT! but she know that i alone going to buy presents. so she headed down to tamp to find me!(: though she make me sweat alot,but it trains patience! and i also thank God for her fo her presence!(: she intro me a shop in tamp one!(:
when we were eating xiao3 ba4 wang2,we saw wang2 jian4 fu4! haha. then me and bern go crazy liao. HAHAHAH

saturday! CELESTINE CAME!;DDD hahas. so funny lorh. the people keep talking about still in our exam period. then celestine keep looking at me cause she ended exams already! ha! feeling happy for her though i am still having my exams!(: then we gave her a surprise and celebrated her bday!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RUIZONG!;DDD (090509)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CELESTINE!<333
[psps,my sheep loves pink too!:P]

without leow at first cause she helping jess tie hair. haha!xD

2009-05-05T22:08:00.002+08:00

seriously. i cant stand it anymore. its really going over my patience.
i am already having a hard time pushing myself to study and to pracitce for my emaths paper 2 tmr. i am seriously HAVING NO MOTIVATION OR PRESSURE AT ALL for this prelim 1 exams.
my friends can keep encouraging me. saying things like jiayou! lets do it together. encouraging me about God's presence. simply just their presence there with me and i feel encouraged. maybe this is the reason why i like studying outside with friends. there is aircon. each time i feel like giving up,people will be there to encourage me. asking me not to give up and thus i will know that i am never alone in this. God's word,the bible,is a tower of refuge. each time i am discouraged,i can find encouragements from there. each time i am stressed,i can find peace.

but it also made me wonder. why am i always angrered easily in the family?
seriously. i dunno whattheheck had gone into my parents' brains. PMS i suppose. and my dad has a BIG SERIOUS ONE. a great freaking mood swing.
sat i bought bubbletea back wanting to let my parents try. i bought it,quench my thirst,and didnt drink it anymore. solely for a good intention: TO LET THEM TRY.
but the first thing i stepped into the door, my dad started freaking scolding me. "How many times must i tell you. late already dont drink all these rite! they gt high sugar content. say so many times still dont listen!" then freak attitude me. i said"thirsty mahs" he went like" thirsty thirsty. cannot come home then drink isit. always drink all these." i said." no lorh. where gt everytime drink. i very long didnt drink already can!"which is like very true because i was fasting from bubbletea earlier on. then he say" i count also know that you drink bubbletea almost everyday. dont think i dunno" i was like thinking WHATTHEHECK! he think he my dad he really know me the best meh. my own life that i am leading,jollywell i know it the BEST. freak him man.

i think swine flu is the damn greatest problem that is stirring up all these trouble.
i dont like to eat the things,i throw they scold
i already have NO MOTIVATION ALREADY RITE. i am feeling hungry. hungry like NOW! so i just went to the kitchen there to get the box of biscuits. eat already then can replenish brain energy to eat what. then i was about to walk into the room when my dad went like" GIRL,YOU BETTER STOP EATING ALL THESE OKAY. IN THESE KIND OF WEATHER AND SEASON YOU CANNOT EAT THIS." LIKE WHATTHEHECK LA. freak leh. i was abt to have motivation to do my maths after eating then what he do?! kill my motivation. great luh. then if i no mood. tmr i flunk my paper. what will happen. NAGGINGS SCOLDINGS will be coming! freak them man!!!!

there isnt any joy.
there isnt any fruitfulness.
GOD! ITS TIME FOR A REVIVAL!!!!
but how?

can somebody tell me how?!

i cant get rid of their mood swings.
i know i can choose my response towards this matter.
sorry God,i chose the wrong one.
but,
I REALLY CANT STAND IT!
give me patience.
patience patience is ultimately the key thing that i gt to have now.

just dunno whats in all these adults brain.
youths are gonna change the world!
change all these stupid mindsets of adults. of parents.

live my life for only one audience.
the one who then truly knows me BEST.
the one who then truly knows me INSIDE OUT.
the one that will NOT ASSUME.
the one that knows how many strands of hair i have.
the one that knows my TRUE FEELINGS
the one that knows my TRUE THOUGHTS.
the one that gives me COMFORT
the one that gives me PEACE.
the one who ENCOURAGES.
the one who LIFTS me UP when i am down instead of pulling me down further.

yes God,i know that's You.

2009-04-29T21:51:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO...
SHERMAINE(210409)
YINGJIE(250409)
CAIJUAN(250409)
DENISE(250409)
SAMANTHA(250409)
YI HONG(280409)

and not forgetting..

MY DEAREST MELISSA!(250409)!

HAHA.thankyou to you guys for being in my life!

TODAY-DI XIAN! my cousin!;DD
haha,he has finished his mye english and chinese papers
next wk will be his other papers!(:

2009-04-25T23:51:00.004+08:00

2more days to syf!
4more days to ~~mid year~~ PRELIMS 1!

initially,i thought that i'm gonna screw my prelims 1.
then i learn in today's sermon
submission is doing my best recognising that God is in control!
yupyup,i'm gonna do all my best and try hard for it to revise for this prelims 1
(dont understand why the sch must stress us until lidat)
but still,despite all these syf intensive trainingssss,i'm still gonna put my best foot forward!
to submit wherever i am,to shine wherever i am too!;D
i'm gonna shine brightly that despite all the tough and TIRING practices,the long hours in the room,with backaches,reaching home late bla bla,but i'm still gonna do well in my papers to be the one that shines out!
yupyup!(:

Father I thankyou for speaking to me today. it was a great hit. as there are only 2more days to our guitar syf as well as 4more days to prelims one,I pray that you will empower each and everyone of us. believe this roller coaster ride that we had in guitar are all in your plans for us to grow in the fruit of the spirit in every aspects. Father,you let us not e nervous,but to be able to present the best to the judges during the 10mins on stage. you let us(sharmaine,ngaiying,teh,me) the fellow busy sisters,and the children of Yours who had to go through trainings as well as studying,be strengthen by Your spirit! we'll not give up on anything,but to keep giving ourbest. For when we are weak,God You will be strong. You give us wisdom,continue to give us fresh manna everday o Lord. We submit everything into your hands. Make us the brightest stars in the darkness. In Jesus Name,AMEN!;DDDD

2009-04-21T21:40:00.003+08:00

CONGRATS TO GUZHENG WHO GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS!
seriously,its surprising!
Guzheng didnt get a gold before. they always maintained at silver and they break through and got GOLD WIH HONOURS!!
wow,felt so happy for them.
on the other hand,stressed.
guitar syf is coming.
yet certain people are still nonchalant about it. giving the heck-care attitude.
knowing that they gt to sit the right posture,but not doing it.
knocking the guitar or making noise when conductor is talking.
dynamics,suppose to get soft,still be loud.
i really dunno dunno what to say.
stress. putting in soo much effort and practice.
staying back for long hours. dont they want to just give their best and after which concentrate on studying for midyears?!
what for waste the time and not doing their best in these practices?!
afterall,getting any awards will boost you up greatly for ur cca points. dont they want it?
practise hard,get better,at least a worthwhile effort.
i dunno what to say.
but still,continue to give in ur best and I believe God will do the rest!;D

father i pray,that you'll give me strength and wisdom. through these times of practices,i'll put in my best;D for its being salt and light. and it'll boost my cca points,do the school well(: God you be with me. the rest of the hopes are pinned on us,God you aid us,you be with us,you empower us. Midyears are drawing near,let me be disciplined. no more procrastination. God! i just want a sense of urgency. a sense of urgency! Give me wisdom. i exchanged my fears and stressfulness with your peace and calmness. I'm going to tide over this period of time with you victoriously! In Your name I pray...AMEN!;DDDDD

2009-04-20T21:43:00.002+08:00

i wanna shout CONGRATS!
CONGRATS TO DANCE FOR GETTING GOLD
CONGRATS TO CHOIR FOR GETTING GOLD
and finally......
CONGRATS TO C.O FOR GETTING GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!
haha..sing hui really shocked me.
she had no confidence initially.
she was very nervous!
when she suddenly sms me---GOLD WITH HONOURS
i nearly screamed for joy! but i was reminded that i was at a public place!
yupp,rock on!
GOOD LUCK TO GUZHENG TMR!
GUITAR! LETS CONTINUE TO GOGOGO!

TO MY FELLOW MUGGER!
LETS MUG TGT!;DDDDDD

today a stupid moth flew in, and it was quite big. we wanted to prank mrs yeo,and we SUCCEEDED!;DDD it was sooo funny!xDDD

2009-04-19T14:10:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE!;D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LESTARI!;D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIH CHING!;D

hahahaha! today science tuition is postphoned!
really thank God!
i was praying that hopefully my tuition will be cancelled so that i can study!
and praiseGod! its postphoned!;D

2009-04-07T23:04:00.002+08:00

FIONA LEOWWWW!
dont sleep too late okayyyy
i dont want seeyou tmr in caregroup with baggy eyes or dark eyecircles
sleep well yeahh shepherd!(:

2009-04-06T19:32:00.002+08:00

yayy! update!
sat guitar was quite fun and quite boring and quite irritating at the same time.
FUN-get to hang along with the clique,get experience
BORING-some songs played made me feel like sleeping
IRRITATING-the stupid costumeeeee the thing keep dropping down =/

after which went to service! second service!
the atmosphere was super different(:
and it makes me perks up!;D
received alot from the WOG on sat!
had a great great time!(:
then had vision afternoon.
cool time (:

2009-03-31T22:39:00.002+08:00

TODAY!
GUITAR!
one word- TIRED.
i am beat out. and i have to do english compre.
bye

2009-03-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

i am lost lost lost. oh wells

2009-03-26T22:32:00.003+08:00

WAAAA!
hehe..alot of things to be updated recently. (:
hmm,okay,i wanna declare that YINGJIE IS NO LONGER MY SHEPHERD!):
though there may be tears or what,but as what leow had said,she really had a great impact in my life! yupyup!
had the first and last mass shepherding on tuesday! at BUGIS!
misha met meng for her first shepherding! me,bern,ngaiying go for guitar!
all my ~~SMs~~planned it together! hehe
meng suggested that we can go miss clarity cafe to eat their favourite dish-MUDOOZE! and its nice!xDD
all the photos are with carinna! some are with me,but my camera no batt. well,pictures will be up when i recieve it!;D

yeappp! I'll really miss all my ~~SMs~~but i know that they are all placed under proper care by God!;D
now my SMs are Jessica,Fiona Teh,Samantha,Ying Hui and Cherisse!
yupyup! for teh and yinghui! we were both under Joy's leadership and also under YingJie's care!
hehe! look forward to serving together alongside with one another more often! though i am still more used to the style of my previous SMs(as they and my shepherd are frm EB1) but i will try my best to adapt to you guys! hehe. dont think any of my SMs will be reading this. but oh wells,its for me to express everything out.

Sat's sermon is a great hit! Prayer is a conversation with a FRIEND! dont have to use bombastic words,God just care about the conversation that we take the effort to do so instead of the words!;D yupyup,i wanna go into a deeper one with God and set aside time to talk to papa everyday!

CLAMS! not much of a teaching! but more of setting aside time to worship God together as a whole!(: yupp! God is powerful! Esther Teo! jiayou and dont give up!
when Jacq asks us to intercede for one another,the thing that Fiona Leow said was very true about me. i am like on the verge on a cliff. sooner or later,i'll just dump everything one side,not care and just jump down. retreating for me was tough. as each time i retreat,i find myself back on the verge again. each time i take back a step,the next moment,i'll be taking forward 2steps. just that this time round,it is too long kept in my heart. i didnt retreat,but instead moving like a car accelerating up the mountain.

CG! had mini praise in cornerstone. then went to KTV at katong shopping centre! photos with xiangying. wait till i get them and i'll post it up! quite fun! leow came in to join us halfway as she gt work. EB1 was there too!;D they at room 8 we at room 2!(: quite a fun time singing and spending time! ANNGIE! shall we go there next time together?;D

2009-03-18T10:55:00.000+08:00

short post. 10 words:
i dont know how to feel and what to feel.

2009-03-15T20:52:00.002+08:00

QUIZ!;D kope from jocelyn's blog (:
Write the names of 21 friends you can think off the top of your head, and then answer the questions. Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess on all of them. After doing this, tag your 21 friends to do the same.
1.Ying Jie
2. Fiona Leow
3. Jessica
4. Ann Gie
5. Melissa
6. Kristal
7. Shermaine
8. Sharmaine
9. Rachel
10. Alicia
11. Shuhadah
12. Eugene
13. Rui zong
14. Bernadette
15. Liling
16. Huan Woon
17. Sophia
18. Luan Chun
19. Ngaiying
20. Fiona Teh
21. Xiangying
*How did you meet 7?
(Shermaine) my neighbour!<3
*What would you do if you had never met 15?
(liling)I would never be good friends with her..
*What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
(Yingjie and teh) err..ok lorh? good friends mahs
*Have you ever seen 17 cry?
(Sophia) nope. haha
*Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
(Anngie and Huan Woon)yupp,they are very good friends!(:
*Do you want to be 13's friend forever?
(Ruizong)yupp,we're already siblings for eternity!(:
*Do you think 11 is attractive?
(Shuhadah)Of course!xD [she'll kill me if she sees this,but i dont think so =P]
*What’s 5’s favorite color?
(Melissa) Green!
*When was the last time you talked to 9?
(Rachel) hmm,sms and msn yesterday!(: face to face is on friday!(:
*What language does 8 speak?
(Sharmaine)English, chinese luh!(: OHH! and tongues!xP
*Who is 13 going out with?
(Ruizong) all out for doing God's work(:
*What grade is 16 in?
(Huan woon)Sec4.
*Would you ever date 17?
(Sophia) yupp! already have a shopping date! [ I miss you precious!<3]
*Where does 18 live?
(Luan Chun) Toa payoh!
*What is the best thing about 4?
(Anngie) the nicest bestest friend and sister ever!<3 we shared many things together yeah?
*What would you like to tell 10 right now?
(Alicia) ILOVEYOU!<3
*What is the best thing about 20?
(Fiona Teh) hmmm,a good friend
*Have you ever kissed 2?
(Fiona Leow) nope ;P
*What’s the best memory you have of 5?
(Melissa)everytime i can jsut talk to her and times when she was still my follow uppie (:
*When’s the next time you’re going to see 4?
(Anngie)Tomorrow!
*How is 7 different from 6?
(Shermaine and Kristal) hmm,one frm tkgs,one frm chung cheng!
*Is 2 pretty?
(Fiona Leow)yupp! pretty leader,pretty people!(:
*What was your first impression of 15?
(Liling)crazy girl who loves camwhoring!
*How did you meet 3?
(Jessica) YHOPE!;D
*Is 15 your best friend?
(Liling) nope! but good friend!;D
*Do you hate 12?
(Eugene) nope,though quite irritating at times ;P
*Have you seen 18 in the last month?
(Luanchun)yupp!we see each other most of the time!
*When was the last time you saw 16?
(Huan Woon) haha! friday! TALENTIME!
*Have you been to 5’s house?
(Melissa) always wanted to but no chance=x
*When’s the next time you’ll see 10?
(Alicia)Tomorrow.
*Are you close to 11?
(Shuhadah)Not bad.
*Have you been to the movies with 4?
(Anngie)yeap! once(:
*Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
(Sharmaine)nope!
*Would you give 19 a hug?
(Ngaiying)yup!:D
*When have you lied to 3?
(Jessica)Dont think I have before. (:
*Is 11 good at socializing?
(Shuahdah)Think so.
*Do you know a secret about 8?
(Sharmaine) Err..she wont tell me de. lol
*Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.
(Eugene and Luan Chun) schmates?! friends?!
*What’s the best thing about your friendship with 9?
(Rachel) CAMWHORING PARTNER!;D and she certainly gave me wonderful memories for 11years!(:
*What’s the worst thing about 6?
(Kristal) hmm,dont have! she my boyf leyy!
*Have you ever had a crush on 12?
(Eugene) nah nahh
*How long have you known 2?
(Fiona Leow) going to be 3 years in few months!(:
*Have you ever been in a fight with 13?
(Ruizong) nope! of course not!(:
*Does 11 have a bf/gf?
(Shuhadah) nope!
*Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face?
(Yingjie) nope nope! my shepherd!
*Has 21 met your mother?
(Xiangying) of course luh! always come my house!! haha
*How did you meet 11?
(Shuhadah) hmm,councillor!(:
*Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
(Jessica) nope! peace!
*Do you live close to 7?
(Shermaine) yeap OF COURSE! within 1min can reach her house loh! lol
*What is 8’s favorite food?
(Sharmaine) healthy food!xD
*What kind of car does 1 have?
(Yingjie) no car! legs lorh!
*Have you travelled anywhere with 9?
(Rachel)Yupp! to taman negara, and recently to GENTING and KL!;D
*If you gave 14 $100, what would he/she spend it on?
(Bernadette) hmm,invest it in people or save?
*Kays I'm done. Do if you're bored,like me (too!)

2009-03-15T20:47:00.003+08:00

i din _____ the wrong person. thankyou ~~dear~~

2009-03-12T20:41:00.003+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY!(:
FIRST-Sophia had flown to china for school exchange programme=/ which means she will miss YOUR CURTAIN CALL ): oh well,still hope that she will enjoy herself there!(:
SECOND-Xianying is back from Malaysia! she had school camp. is like whole school go together. and she was so excited and share about the people's tents kena flooded. =/ she came down for caregroup!(:
THIRD-Talentime is TOMORROW!;D i am going to supporting my dear!(: dont be mistaken,cause its not a guy! but TOH ANN GIE! she got into the finals! DUET AND GROUP!;DD haha.. but her voice not very well recently=/ hope it will recover by tmr!!!!!(:
and i am going to watch it with dearest JESSICA!;D yay! thankyou for taking the time off to pei me!(:
FOURTH-YOUR CURTAIN CALL is COMING!;D 2days later!(: i am so excited! ANN IS COMING!;DD but no other visitors ): my contact pool shrank because of my carelessness
FIFTH- RESTRUCTURING RESULTS! its coming! me and jess kept talking about it and i am so excited about it! dunno why,last time i was so scared,but this time i am excited!;D
cant wait for sat to come!i made a small bet with bern! (horh bern?) haha! she know what is going on!(:
I WANT TO THANK GOD FOR SOMETHING!<3
my chemistry was all the while a CANNOT MAKE IT paper. any proper exam(except tests) i will usually FAIL!): sad rite. but this time i mugggg real hardd for it and i passed! i can still remember how i walked into the exam hall,filled with nervousness. but halfway through doing,i can sense peace in my heart that this paper will be alright. and yeap,true enough! i ~~failed~~PASSED MY FIRST WRITTEN EXAM!;DDDD and its not just a bare pass! its a B3!(: isnt it great to be serving such a cool God like that?!(:

2009-03-08T17:54:00.012+08:00

WOOTS! AFTER BREAKING FREE FROM COMMON TESTS,WENT OUT TO HAVE A CRAZY TIME WITH RACHEL LAMMMM! my ever so cool friend for 10 years! and i can consider as a camwhoring partner yeah!
At first it was hard deciding on a place for us to go to. When after which we decided to go to suntec!(: bus-ed down to suntec and were talking on the way.
When we reach,our lunch was a problem. We didnt know what to eat and were super hungry.When suddenly that silly girl suggested pepper lunch! so ta-da! we went there!;D
After eating,went down to the job convention centre! its like so weird. once we stepped in,these 2 guys approached us to do a survey.i wanted to reject it. but
rachel lam asked: What is this?
guy: survey la. help us do
rachel:orh ok lorh
(the 2guys pass the paper to us)
the survey had this question:what is ur highest qualification? choices are N level, O level,Diploma and others la. and we were like whattheheck,havent even take O level. highest only PSLE!
so we like telepathy lidat.
Rachel: err,this question how
guy:just fill in la
Rachel: but we havent take o level
guy:huh? ur havent graduate uh?
Rachel: no. this yr taking.
(2guys exchanged looks and laughed)
So we just anyhow put already den give them
we went in and walk one round. so kuku la that rachel lam.
tourism and hospitality she thought related to hospital one. HAHA
after we went down the escalator den saw sheena and jasmine and we cant stop laughing.
gradually,we see more secondary school pupils carrying alot of flyers,should be frm the job fair de,and we keep saying about the 2 survey guys.
After that went sky garden and camwhored like madddd!;D
funny stuffs happen and jump shots were taken.
under the hot sun,laughters were heard,sweats could be seen ;D
went in toys r us to play with all the things inside.hehe
then went over to esplanade. our place last time were taken. ): so we found another shady place and take photosss!(:
after which my phone went kuku and we went for a mission wanting to get my phone repaired!
and A BIG THANKYOU TO RACHEL LAM THE STRONG! she manage to help me push the cover open and revived it! YAYYY!had a great day with her!;DDDD
picturesss!xDDDDD

2009-03-08T15:52:00.002+08:00

oh well. the grads left the youth yesterday ): yesterday was their last service in youth and their first service in tertiary. i know that there are surely tears. but i believe god will use them so much more!
well,yesterday,i wasnt the one who is affirming or being affirmed. but i cried. i dunno why,but i will tend to drop tears whenever i see people drop tears =/
i just want to tell the grads that thankyou for setting a standard there for us to follow. thankyou for leading the examples.
candace and dawn are the one that impacted me alot alot.
Candace is always known as the sheep chaser. she really have the spirit after God's heartbeat. No matter how missing or unnresponsive they may be,she will think so new creative ways and ideas to win their hearts back. and of course,she did it with love. though i dont really know her well and talk to her alot. but still she still inspires me through the stories i heard. my case is like similar to hers.
2 sheeps are missing in action. i dunno how well are they doing. are they into the world? they hardly reply my sms-es. not turning up for caregroup,service. one's morale may be hitten down when efforts have been put in but still no results are shown. yes,i admit that after the minor change that went on in the group since the last time,my spirit has gone down.
last time my sheep faces persecution,i gone through it with her. we've been through tough moments, cui3 moments. but God has been faithfully been our side. though we may just feel like falling,but still we choose to persevere under the leaders' encouragements. thanks teh,leow,yingjie and jacq (:
but nowww.. my 2 sheeps seem to be total shut off frm me. getting into the world and many others. i've tried hard. but still they are not really responding. didnt get to meet them,not turning up for stuffs. i'm tired. howhowhow,was what i kept asking myself.
but now i got refreshed again. i want to pick myself up again to kip chasing and connecting them.
For God has already placed them in my hands. If i'm not gonna do the connecting,who's gonna do it?(:
dawn! her spirit in wanting to win souls. she is so determined and stepped up to say that she wants to be the one to win her school. ownership that she has taken. though she left,but the baton is still in our hands. we are gonna complete it. each time i kept thinking that it is impossible to win the school,dawn will keep encouraging me. though she may appear to be crazy all the time,but still she has the gentle,sweet and encouraging side. thankyou dawn!(:
likewise for evangelism. guess i have not done it for a long time. dennis met up with the rest yesterday. it was talking about the goals that we set is not just for us to play with it. but serious because this is what God has placed in us.
sorry God,i had no faith at first and didnt believe that my gift is still in me. i chose to believe that the gift is gone and that has kept me to procrastinate each time i go evaxing. renew my heart and compassion once again for the people out there. i want to win souls for you. use me again again.

2009-03-04T17:58:00.001+08:00

ahhh! i screwed my emath paper today.
stupid vectors and distance time graph and there goes my 11 marks ):
oh well

BUT!

i already have 6 papers down!

1 MORE TO GO!;DD

2009-03-01T19:18:00.001+08:00

aint these 2 children cute? haha..

taking a breather from studying. its getting stressedd up

2009-02-23T22:14:00.005+08:00

yayyy! I'm back to blog!
i know that yingjie cannot read my blog cause of exams! but its okay! she will read it after breaking free in 3 days! HAHA by then,my common tests are coming and she is having holidays ><

SHEPHERD!<3

u're gonna break free soon! continue to jiayou on alrights!(: believe that as you continue to serve,God will surely honor u alot alottt!(: haha.. after your exams end will be the start of my common tests. so i'll bug you for shepherding. then you're gonna shepherd AND teach me !xD

LEOW!<3

hello ah leow! know that you're going through major examinations now too! not anxious,not prepared? its okay man! have faith! believe that by having a free day (sat) to sabbath with God as well as serving together in this kingdom, God will honor you!;D

TOH ANNGIE!<3

HAHA! i'm blogging now!xDDD thankyouuuu for being such an awesome friend! though it is super blur of how we talk to each other and even got very close friends frm nt very close in pri school,but still, REALLY love you!(: haha..thanks for the many things you've done for me!;D haha,appreciate this greattt friendship!(:

TEHHHH!<3

hahaha TEH TEH! see how stupid you were last time? xDDD You zhang3 da4 le4! ;PPP well,common test coming le! DONT PROCRASTINATE LIAO!;D

we mugggg together yeahhh!(:

gna mug le..byeeee;D

2009-02-11T13:16:00.001+08:00

yayyy! finsih le.. finalyy!
SO FAST RITE?!xDDD
haha..kristal yang's laughing!xD
eee,i'm not the realistic kind de. gtg le.
printer jam! HAHA
bye!

2009-02-11T13:04:00.003+08:00

haha! now in school! computer labbb!;DD
doing some stupid personal globe inventory thing.
23 pages long lehhH! and i'm still on the 10th pages!
some results will show RIASEC thing!
Realistic
Investigative
Artistic
Social
Enterprising
Conventional
stupid rights@ those things they asked i hardly do!
how i know how good i can do right ><
anngie scolding me now
cause i kip alt tabbing to switch webs! HAHA!
teacher 2 seats away!
scared liao!
byebye!

2009-02-05T23:44:00.003+08:00

wa,i think my dad seems to have something against me.
its like what the heck.
eversince i've been ok with him,he has been toooo OVERLY CONCERN if i want to put it in a nicer way.
take this situation for example:
everything i do seems unpleasant and wrong in his eyes.
i am just merely doing my homework and he got to come in and disturb me REPEATEDLY. talking stuffs over and over again.
now I am doing my English TUITION homework. which i really quite dread to do it.
and its like whattheheck. He has been asking me to express about my thoughts for tuitions.
and NOW,when i am seriously expressing my REAL THOUGHTS,he said that i am biased.

my school teacher says that in the O level exam,english essay cannot write more than 500 words or they will just cancel off the back parts and ignore it. which means ur story wont have a proper ending and flow.

the length that i have been writing is about 500 plus words. (about 1 and a half pages long). and my tutor had to keep saying that it is TOO SHORT! after that i told him what my teacher had said. he was like okay lorh,then kip to what my sch teacher say.

After writing a compo,he said: i think O level the markers wont be so strict. can write longer one. and expect me to write about 2 pages long. and mind you,its not that easy to write. i wouldnt want to risk my mark by writing like that in O levels. He kept talking crap during lesson time. From a 1 and a half hour of tuition turned out to be 1 hour. how great.

After saying all these to my parents,my mother didnt say much.
But its my DAD who has been showing me attitude.
I was telling him about what my sch teacher and tutor say about composition.
what the heck did he come and tell me?!
He said: Girl, I want to tell you something. If you keep biased against people,ur compo will never improve. Always think on the positive side and not the negative.
And i was like:WTH?! is like first u want me to express out my feelings about the tutor and u felt that i was biased and had something against him.
Is like how to think on the positive side when my tutor wants me to RISK my marks?!
its not like as if i know someone from cambridge who marks the scripts right?!
if its like that,i'll know for sure what is the criteria.
But the truth is, I hav never sat for an O level ENGLISH exam before!
How would i know how people mark rite?! of course i would take the safer route-keeping it less than 500words.
then my dad have to say all these.
if thats the case,i'll rather him not to say all these stuffs and just keep my feelings and thoughts away from my family. always ask me share feelings,then after i share? this is what happen

2009-02-02T22:55:00.002+08:00

yayyyy! i want to share something!(:
i learnt something from my quiet time yesterday!(:
my Shepherd spoke to me!(:
i dont think i will have chance to share with my caregroup,so i'll share here!;D
In Deuteronomy 7:7-8a-->The Lord did not set his affection on you and choose you because you were more numerous than other peoples,for you were the fewest of all peoples. But it was because the Lord loved you.
Is like God didnt choose me or YOU to pionner the school that u are pioneering because of our size in church or because He had too little people to choose from so he random picked us.
However,it was because He loved us,that He trusted us the schools into our hands! The souls in the schools,that He had already bought with blood into our hands. He trusted and picked us for He wants us to spread of this SACRIFICIAL LOVE that he had done (:
In Deuteronomy 7:12-15 ( got alot i dontwant to type out,go check bible or www.biblegateway.com) it was spoke to me that if we were to follow what God has prepared for us,He will keep this covenant of love! He will surely bless you as long as we put in our best! we wont have any disadvantages,but be showered with lots of blessings! As long as we do God's work,we wont have to worry abt the people who work against us. For people who work against us,God will deal with them Himself. All we have to do is to keep planting seeds,do our best. The rest will be up to God!(:

and you know what?! after praying with teh,i prayed for wisdom for i am stuck in my english compo. and my mighty God gave me inspiration!;DDDD

2009-01-25T19:06:00.004+08:00

hehe..was quite lazy to update! so here it goes!(:

WEDNESDAY!

stay back for some talk thing by miss lam. about science.

many thanks and sorry to JACQ SIM and SAMANTHA!

they waited for me for half and hour=/

after which headed out to bus stop and the bus to paya lebar take freaking long to come=/

but its okay! had a good talk with Jacq,Kristal Yang and Samantha!(:

headed to Mt Alvernia hospital to visit TAY LILING!;D

haha..had great fun and laughters with her and Jacq!(:

hehe..and that silly girl was discharged on wednesday night!

haha..she was still saying that she dont want to spend her new year in hospital!

and now she can wear her preety new clothes that she bought;D

THURSDAY!
went for yan3 jiang3 ci2 instead of guitar. after which headed down to cornerstone for caregroup!haha..play charade for games!(: haha. teh attempted to give me hard one. but mine was the easiest!(: i feel luh.

FRIDAY!

had CNY celebration. not that interesting. so was talking with Kristal Yang!

after which went home with Rachel Lam(after missing 3 buses!) cause the ai mei girl wanna paint her nails! haha xD when the bus went to lucky station bus stop, Rachel was like: ehh joshua kwek ehh! he also wear slipper! and i was like LOL! haha..

went home and slept for 2hours unknowingly. didnt manage to finish my tuition homework. and then my teacher kept saying about it indirectly=/

SATURDAY!

service! as usual. and Celestine came!(: hha..after which went to istana park!

the whole EAST!;D gathered together to lau yu sheng!(:

me and leow were like running all the way to carrefour there to buy the stuffs!

saw ED1 and ED2 there also! buying things. me and leow were like practically in a mad rush. and then ran all the way back to istana! played games and headed to MOS burger!(:

after which had CLAMS meet!(:

had a great fun learning the WOG!(:

I wanna step up in courage!(:

learnt something!

When we stop accounting to our leaders,we're actually opening our doors for Satan to come in!=x

and whatever that we do,dont let it have a foothold in our lives! if not we'll dwell in it. And if we have a foothold,Satan will come and try to hinder our walk with God.

I want to be a great support to Fionas in leading the caregroup!

Leadership=Ownership=Completion!

I'm gonna own my caregroup,or else who's gonna own it?(:

TODAY!

had a great sleep on the new bedsheet!LOL. tuition was last minute cancelled! PRAISE GOD!<3

went to watch forensic heroes again! for the third time! lol. and here i am in front of the computer! tmr is going to chai chee time! to visit my dear nephew who is dunno how many months old!(: so excited to see him for the SECOND time eversince he was born.

TEENIE! ARE YOU COMING TMR?):

I MISS THE TIMES WHERE WE GO AND VISIT AHLING JIEJIE AND GO CRAZY TAKING PHOTOS IN THE TOILETTTT!;DD

IMY!<3333

2009-01-20T20:20:00.003+08:00

i really really really want to thank God for GOD!;DDD He is really the one who is the comforter of our hearts! I've faced some issues recently. Each time i cried,i felt the tender love of God. The comforting hand that keeps assuring me that everything will be fine and that God will always be there for me!(:
However,i had become crazy recently. Ann Gie has tolerated with my craziness.. THANKYOU GIRL!;DDD she knew that i love monkeys,she drew a big big monkey for me!(: in pinkkkk!<3
Another person i want to thank is you(though i know you wont even be reading this). I dontknow why,but eversince you are not really there anymore,i become very crazy i seem to be like a crazy mad woman desperate to seeyou. i'm like a lost lost child..i become mad trying to locate you in every recess.each time i dont seeyou,i'll be crazy. i'll be moody in class. trying to pay attention,but at the back of my mind,thinking of you. drawing thousands and thousands of crazy words,to describe my feelings. how i wish just one day,i can go to the beach,along the sea,alone or with someone and just scream my lungs out. like youknow those kind that we see in drama.i dunno why. people say that if you dont see the person for very long,your feelings will be lost. but mine is the opposite. the longer i dont see you,i will be dwelling in it. getting desperate to seeyou each time. grabbing each opportunity to look at you.=/ but still wanna thankyou for being such a wonderful and great support towards me. your encouragement never fails to encourage and motivate me.when i faced problems with my dad,the one that i first want to find(besides God) is you. is you is you. i know i cant express out. sorry,though i promised you before that i wont keep anything in me but to pour out to someone,but this kind of things i know i cant say. i know i cant i cant.=x i kept it for 1year.this feeling,but i still choose to keep until today. u alone are my motivator. thinking of you cheers me up.but after seeing different scenes in the past week plus today,my heart sankkkkk.

2009-01-18T22:59:00.003+08:00

TAGGED TO DO QUIZ
1: Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
Cheeks.
2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
Tired=x
3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
My dearest SM!-MISHA!xD
4: Would you considered yourself to be spoilt?
I AM. xD
5: Would you ever donate blood?
No bahs. i'm scared =/
6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yeap,i guess?(:
7: Do you want someone dead?
of course not(:
8: What does your last text message says?
"thank god fr u too!:)"
9: What are you thinking of right now?
something.....
10: Do you wish someone is with you right now?
yeap! haha..but God is with me!(:
11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
1am.
12: Where did you buy the t-shirt you're wearing now?
dad bought it from thailand (:
13: Is someone on your mind right now?
yeah? i think so :x
14: Who was the last person who text you?
Rui Zong!;D

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ:

Number 1: Louisa!(:
Number 2: Rui zong!(:
Number 3: Bernadette!(:
Number 4: Sophia PRECIOUS!<3
Number 5: Fiona Leow(:
Number 6: Rachel!(:
Number 7: Melissa!<3
Number 8: Ying Jie!(:
Number 9: Hui Hui!(:
Number 10: Cherisse!(:
15: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
Rui zong God! :D
16: Is 3 a male or a female?
Bernadette female DUH!
17: If 7 and 10 get together, will that be a good thing?
Melissa and Cherisse. nah. they are pure.dont even know each other
18: What is number 1 studying about?
Louisa err..all sorts of subjects?! english,chinese,maths,sceince,geog,history,lit!(:
19: When was the last time you had a chat with them?
yesterday and today(:
20: Is number 4 single?
Sophia err..nope! lol
21: Say something about number 2.
Rui zong hmm,he's a great and supportive brother!;D
22: What do you think about number 3 and number 6 being together?
hmm,nah. impossible
23: Describe number 9.
Hui Hui hmm,onlychild? cheerful and bubbly girl!(:
24: What will you do if number 6 and 7 fights?
Rachel and Melissa haha..nah,didnt even see each other before! lol
25: Do you like number 8?
Ying Jie yuppp! MY PRETTAYE SHEPHERD!;D

2009-01-12T18:03:00.005+08:00

I'm disappointed. I didnt expect that I will get this result. but oh well.

i went into the hall without feeling anything at all. People were anxiously talkin and talking about it but though i heard it,but felt nothing much.

in the end disappointment came.

oh well,i guess God is gonna do something to shine his light out in the other subjects. i hope.

chinese isnt working. hopefully a miracle will happen in my english and other subjects.

and yeap,on these tenseful day for many people, its also none other than a special day as well! and that is..

ALICIA WEE BIRTHDAY! hehe..happy birthday girl! know you for about 3 years le! yupp,great to know you as a friend!(: from being councillors together with you,and then now we are in the same class! thanks for trying to cheer me up whenever i am upset and listen to me talk rubbish about you-know-who. You're a great and sincere friend and i really appreciate you!!!!(:jiayou in this newyear yeah! continue to bring smiles to people!xD happy sweet sweet sixteen!;DD

2009-01-11T23:03:00.002+08:00

today is boringggggggg =/
i finally did my literature homework. and i'm kinda pissed!
TOH ANN GIE!!! u must listen to me tmr kay!(:
haha..
restructuring results were out.
i felt nothing, surprisingly.
before that i was freaking out. i even cried luh.
after certain encouragement from all my dears,i got better.
and i am happy!
Xiangying!
i believe that this change is surely for a growth. You will grow so much more under teh teh! continue to be stretched by God like a spring yeahh! He will not stretch you to a certain extent that you will break,but to the max that you can! He will use you to win your schools,to be a blessing to others! As long as you grow,God will use you so so much more. Dont feel sad or what,but put all these feelings down and move on yeahh!(:
Bernadette!
yayyy! you're back as my SM again!(: hee..so happy,continue to serve together yeah?(:
you're gonna win chungcheng,I'm gonna win buddha!xD

2009-01-06T21:02:00.002+08:00

yay! third day of school! HAHA. lol. today lessons were like:english,pe,egeog,physics,amath,chem
and its like whoa! time passes so quickly. i seem to enjoy all these lessons learning(but better if nt alot of hwk) den going for lessons like home education or DnT in lower sec.
mr chia(chem teacher) know that my class is feeling restless. so he released us 5mins earlier! yay! haha..me and my dearest anngie went to walk around at the old block to wait for her sister(: and its on the 3rd floor! *winks* nt bad rite? easily accessible. haha. anngie cant find her sister in the class,so i had to go back new block to find my dear rachel lam(: haha.. but before that headed in to surprise my SM! luanchun! as well as yanjie! haha. i miss old block! so many memories were at the old block! like last year 2008,the sec3s had the whole of 4th levels to ourselves! ;D yupp.
anngie,jilljean,rachel and i waited at the concourse for anngie's parents to come(: den i ran after a taxi just to see a sign:ON CALL! wth. kuku things happened to me and they were all laughing at me (as usual). yupp,journey on the car was so funny. with stupid conversations going around. messages were passed from rachel to me,and then from me to anngie,then from anngie to her mother,then her mother to her father! haha. kinda funny though.after which send rachel up and then walked home. headed home and slept!
hehe..yupp,alot alot alot of homework to do! just taking a breather to blog!
freak it! i got HCL compo,emath,lit,english to chiong by tonight?! and i only have 1 more hour left. wish me good luck peeps! bye!(:

2009-01-04T16:04:00.002+08:00

hearing a news..i am utterly speechless.
i am tired. since quite long ago.
the best time was 3 years back. but the best times only lasted for 2-3weeks.
and now everything is like the same
isit meant to be a cycle?
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
speechless
i guess i might have abit of rough ideas bahs.

2009-01-03T22:23:00.002+08:00

hehe..today is a special day! hehe..because of just 2 special reasons! and they are:
1)TODAY IS THE FIRST SERVICE OF YEAR 2009!(:
Woah,service really struck me alot alot alot. these are the 2songs:
Second chance:
You called my name, reached out your hand,
Restored my life, and I was redeemed,
The moment you entered my life,
Amazing grace, Christ gave that day,
My life was changed,
Went from my shoulders, fell the weight of my sin
Chorus:
So it's with everything I am, I reach out for your hand,
The hope that changed a second chance I've gained,
On you I throw my life, casting all my fears aside,
How could greater love then this, ever possibly exist
Consume my thoughts, as I rest in you,
I'm now in love, with a Saviour,
Bearing the marks of his love
Bridge:
So I wait upon you now,
With my hands released to you,
Where a little faiths enough,
To see mountains lift and move,
Yeah and I wait upon you now,
Dedicated to your will,
To this love that will remain,
A love that never fails

As well as the song To you:
Here I stand forever in
Your mighty hand
Living with Your promise
Written on my heart
I am Yours
Surrendered wholly to You
You set me in Your family
Calling me Your own
Now I,I belong to You
Lord I need Your Spirit Your word Your truth
Hear my cry my deep desire
To Know You more
In Your name
I will lift my hands
To the King
This anthem of praise I bring
Heaven knowsI long to love You
With all I am
I belong to You

service was great! taught about how we should really submit our lives to God who is our Lord&shepherd in control! God really loves me alot alot alot! To anybody who dunno Jesus,come and know Him man! its the bestest bestest life you can ever ever live in your life!(:

2) Its someone's birthday! and its my dearest BERNADETTE LOH QIAN YING!XD
this is her unglam photo today:

the cause of it: yanjie put cream on her and xiangying put the portion of her cake onto bern's cheeks! HAHA

the consequence: bern had to go around le meridien saying:today its my birthday!

and i had to suffer with her as i was pulling her. woah,its super heavvy to travel around with her! haha..

people who also kena:huanyi,misha,carinna. any others? not that i know of (:

BERN! SMS! hehe..well,already affirmed you while walking with you around le meridien! hehe..shall add more here (:

hehe..thank you my wonderful girl! for putting a smile into many people's lives! i'm one of them too! yupp.. still remember how we know each other? by the chung cheng popular bookshop! we're gonna know each other for exactly 2 years le! roughly estimate the date. yupp (:

thank you for always availing urself to the best that you can to be there to lend a listening ear or to accompany someone. still remember that last year alot of stayovers were made in my house. wanna tell you that i can never forget those memories. its like no one has ever stayed in my house for so many times,only you bernie(: thankyou for being so sweet spirit. sometimes i may take out my anger on you,it is like soo childish,but yet you put up with me. thanks alot alot (:

as I've told you,you really change alot!

from a childish to a more mature one. (though now still gt xiao3 hai2 zi3 la)

from one who was quite rebellious to parents to one who takes effort to spend time with them. now you're trying to earn their trust! you reall zhang3 da4 in that area! and i believe many people that have known you for long/close with you can surely testify this big great change in you!(:

continue to grow bern! believe that God will really really use you as an instrument to impact many others with this sweet spirit of urs. God will really use you to be a vessel to transport your love. One day,ur 3 sheeps will be touched by your love that you had poured out to them. continue to work hard! for the joy of the Lord is your strength! (: never give up on them cause God never did that!;D

2009-01-01T20:50:00.002+08:00

well! 2009 is here! HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS! xD
here are my new year resolutions:
1) to have a balanced time out well. despite working hard to advance God's kingdom in expanding it or discipling people,i still want to put in my best in my studies. Family,Kingdom,Studies,Friends all balanced.
2)to depend on God in every situation. In whatever situations,bad or good,i will still place my trust in Him and thank Him. Bad times,i will be calm and know that He is in control. Good times,i will know that it is Him who have brought me through and thank Him for the blessings!
3)to keep a healthy lifestyle. last year in high school.only chance for my 'O's. i dont want to keep eating junk food everyday and end up falling sick everytime. It will not only hinder my walk with God,but also my daily activities.

Father i pray,that as i submit all these resolutions that I have into ur hands,God u bless me. You carry me with ur everlasting arms through every situation. I know that it's not going to be easy in this new year of 2009 as you have prepared in my heart. But i know that they are all for me to grow,to mould me. God you help me,you bless me,you protect me. Help me to stand strong. In your name I pray,AMEN!;DD

2008-12-30T20:08:00.002+08:00

okays! yay! now about TODAY!301208
hehe..yupp,woke up at 8.15 lidat in the morning. did abit of homework den went down to east coast to meet my beloved games comm! haha.. at east coast macs. poor yanyu took teh bus all the way to east coast terminal and the bus uncle gave her wrong directions. she ended up walking 5km and havent reach yet. she gave up and decided to just cab down instead.
THANKGODFORYOUYANYU!;DDD
hahas..after which tried 1 of the games with skipping rope! haha..so funny. yushan and esther teo one side pulling. me and yihao another side pulling. i could felt the tension in the rope. the next moment,the rope snapped and i fell on the floor=/ after that when yanyu has arrived,we applauded for her!(: then we discuss and discuss. we pulled a trick on melissa too! so funny! HAHA. yupp,then yanyu and esther need to leave at 1. so the rest of us headed down to parkway! went to hunt for suitable games materials. den something kuku happened to yushan.

yihao and yushan wanted to go toilet. so we went to parkway macs. then me and melissa waited outside for them! yihao came out first. waited for awhile until yushan came out.
once she just came out from the door,she started screaming,something like:wlao eh! i didnt get to go to toilet! some girl inside shouting"mummy! my shit cannot come out!" and the mummy was like"faster shit! just squeeze out!" and yushan could not wait any longer and just come out of macs. she keep saying about it. yihao laughed like mad la can! siao lorh he! then after that yushan told us wad happen to her(which i couldnt remember). she said something about dunno what guy hear the small girl scream den push open the door to take a look.{isit ah yushan?lol}

haha! after which bus-ed down to find sharmaine! she pei me go buy bedsheet! at first like quite disappointing at OG,the outside there. until we went in,and find nicer ones! hehe..bought 2 sets!
only to realise that 1 set is of the wrong size=/ so my mummy's gonna go down to change it for me!(:

i'm so looking forward to east chalet tomorrow!;D sorry rachel! cant spend the last day of year 2008 camping with you!): enjoy urself kay!(:

2008-12-30T18:25:00.005+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! hehe..okays..i'm here blogging because stupid rachel lam ask me to do so! haha..well,23rd dec! spent my day out with RACHEL LAM!;D haha..
she wanted to go down to vivo as she has not gone there for more than one year!
we went to walk walk around first before buying our lunch! Long John Silvers! we decided to dapao up to the rooftop to eat!(: we realised that the bench is like so hot,so went to a corner under shelter to eat. the next moment it rained. took out my umbrella,and it almost flew off. haha. then stupid things happen to rachel lam. then rain stop after finish eating. so went to the pool to play in water!(: hehe..
the pictures tell the story...

never forget the crazy moments we spent in the toilet camwhoring!(:

after which got abit bored of vivo and went down to habourfront shopping centre! walk walk,buy drink,take photos with xmas decoration and head home cause rachel gt tuition at 8pm that day!

i went out again with rachel lam on 251208! and that is christmas! i lazy blog le. refer to rachel's blog for info and photos!(:

2008-12-25T22:44:00.002+08:00

hello all!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
hehe..recieved tons of greeting via sms! from:
Rachellam everbest camwhore partner
Shermaine sister
Xiangying sheep
Ann Gie sister&dear
Emily
Louisa
Justin
Benjamin (not the one frm cchms)
Brenda
Adeline (mjr)
Simyee
Ruizong didi
Manling
Luan chun RB&SM
Stephanie
Huiyee

THANKYOU!;DD

lastly to all people out there
christmas without christ is just mas. it means nothing
but christmas without mas is christ! it means SOMEthing!(:

orchard lightings are beautiful! i spent it with RACHELLAM!
happy 10th year camwhore partner! haha..

alrights! will update more tmr!(:

2008-12-22T13:18:00.002+08:00

well,i'm here to say something! and that is...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA LEOWWWW!;D
hehe..yupp,today is her birthday!(: i'm super happy! haha..hmm,counting back,i've known her for 2years5months exactly!(: ahhas..
i still remember wad she said on my birthday! that is,she've seen me throughout this 2yrs plus of my spiritual life. means she known me ever since i've entered yhope and become a childofgod!
its been 2 years of our friendship fiona! i will never forget how much we've been through together! from being in the same caregroup-East B under Joy,till now still in east B under Jacq!
though now that we're no longer in the same caregroup,but we still been through things together! thanks for being such a great support and encouragement to me!(: its been truly appreciated! especially the time when i fell to the most low of my spiritual walk. i'll never forget the encouragement and support you have given to me! encouraging me through sms,verbally,etc. they're all remembered in my heart!;D
still remember the times whereby we hang out together 2 ppl where you were my part time shepherd when yinghui wasnt doing well that time.
there were many many beautiful stories between us that i'll never forget!;D the difficult times we've been through,happy moments sad moments. i've remembered them all!
though our friendship were like a rollercoaster ride before,people may not believe the friendship story between both of us. but it still is the truth!
God will always be in the centre of this friendship! this is always wad keeps us going on together!
its great serving together with you! the rest of what i want to tell you will be in my present!
LOVE YOU FIONA!<3333
you are one of the best sisters and role model i could ever have in my life!;DDD

seen how much you've changed? hehe..continue to grow more in our papa yeahh!(:

2008-12-20T20:04:00.001+08:00

The day door is closed,
The echo's fill your soul.
They wont say which way to go,
Just trust your heart.

To find what you're here for,
Open another door.
I'm not sure anymore.
It's just so hard.

The voices in my head,
Tell me they know best!
Got me on the edge,
They're pushin', pushin',
They're pushin'

I know they got a plan,
While the balls in my hands!
This time it's man-to-man,
I'm droppin', fightin', it's time too.

Whole worlds upside down,
What do I do now? Cause I choke!

I don't know, where to go, what's the right team?
I want my own thing. So bad I'm gonna Scream!
I can't choose, so confused! What's it all mean?
I want my own dream. So bad I'm gonna Scream!

I'm kickin' down the walls.
I gotta make 'em fall!
Just break through them all!
I'm pushin', crashin', I'm gonna
Fight to find myself,
Me and no one else!
Which way I get down, pushin',
Searchin', can't find a
Road that I should take,
I should, tomorrow left us!
Like nothing works without you!

I don't know, where to go, what's the right team?
I want my own thing. So bad I'm gonna Scream!
I can't choose, so confused! What's it all mean?
I want my own dream. So bad I'm gonna Scream!

Yeah we're cooks, running down,
Hear the crowd gettin' loud!
I'm consumed by the sound!
Is it hurt? Is it love?
Has it ever been enough?
Gotta work it out, gotta work it out!
You can do it, you can do it!

I don't know, where to go, what's the right team?
I want my own thing. So bad I'm gonna Scream!
I can't choose, so confused! What's it all mean?
I want my own dream. So bad I'm gonna Scream!

I don't know, where to go, what's the right team?
I want my own thing. I want my own thing!
I can't choose, so confused! What's it all mean?
I want my own dream. So bad I'm gonna Scream!
Ohh! Ahh!

i guess this song is the one that really suits me. my mind,my thoughts,almost everything is expressed. everything's changed,changed changed

2008-12-18T20:10:00.004+08:00

heyy! this post is specially for 2 someones. but dunno if they will come to my blog to read it and know that i'm referring to them.

hey sister! well,i've poured out to you things that i'm currently facing right now to you. poured it out to you yesterday. i've told you reasons why,why i feel that i'm facing. and after which all i recieved was a long but touching sms from you. you mentioned things about not wanting me to leave and everything. u want me to stand strong together in it. You know that God has a plan for us. i know that i'm the only reason now that is motivating you to stay. i'll promis you right here on my blog. yes sister,for you and youknowwho,i'll stay strong. no matter how hard i am struggling now,i'll try to get my path right back on track. just wanna tell you that ytd's long sms made me cried. cause youknow what? right straight after i poured out things,i am already on the verge of crying. and after that you this silly girl send this touching sms. i didnt hesitate or what,but i just broke down and cried on the spot.you really made me cried through the night and let me recall about my life,the past eversince i came in,how i know you and my current life. thanks sister,i know that you love me alot,and wanna tell you that i love you alot alot too. i promise you right here,on my blog,that no matter how hard things may go and yes,i will struggle. but everytime i feel like giving up hope,i promise to look back to that sms to know that there's someone who loves me still,our daddy,and i'll try my best to come back stable again. we are gonna be in this together. i've asked you:do you think our friendship can last till 30plus and still be as close like how ivan and sam were in forensic heroes? and your reply was just simply:yes! and of course! i'll always remember ths covenant that we've made with one another. We'll be close friends,close buddies,sticking on for one another through not only the storms,but also in happy times. i have faith!(: lets move on and run this race together!(:
ILOVEYOUALWAYS!<3 (it meant to be red in colour. but i think my blogger gt problem,so cant show the contrast. sorry=x)

now for another person,a short note.short and sweet.
heyy,dun think u'll be reading my blog. but yeahh. just wanna tell you that u're currently stable again. well,i'm happy for you. you've told me to buck up and jiayou. thanks for being a good listening ear and being sensitive to each word that i've soken to you. thanks alot for understanding the situation that i'm always in and trying my best to cheer me up. thanks alot.
i shall promise you here that yeap,i'll try my best to buck up and jiayou!
i will continue running this race together.(:
I'LLSERVETOGETHERWITHYOU!;DD
(it meant to be brown in colour. but i think my blogger gt problem,so cant show the contrast. sorry=x)

2008-12-17T20:08:00.003+08:00

hello! hahs..i am back after 1 full day out with the games comm! haha..well,yupp,met early at 11.30 at east coast macs. delayed until 12pm. the freaking bus driver make me pay $1 just for a stupid bus trip to parkway and even gt attitude from him. i wanna thank 2 people. they are Baoyi and Ann! hahas..they helped me and directed me to the underpass! seriously,if it wasnt for them,i think i would have gt lost. haha..i took half an hour just to figure my way to east coast macs. what do u expect. haha..
yupp,after that meet the people. then realised that east coast isnt a good place afterall for games. so bus-ed back to 15. talked,laughed about several topics. reach pasir ris int. went to EAT! hha..esther teo,being a happy person after fasting for months,ate MEAT! haha.. congrats to all CLS! haha..they had broke fast from meat after a tough fast for months. ahha..

at beach that time,discussed,tried out games. woah,cool man! had a great laugh. but those games that we planned were proved to be PLAYABLE! so east ppl! be excited for games! haha..cause we're all so excited now,especially the games comm. haha. yupp,had a great laugh,drawing things by the beach and taking photos,den headed back to pasir ris int again. sat down to discuss further. and everything was discussed!;D yayy! i'm so happy ;D

tmr there is east BC evangelism workshop!
i'm thinking if i should go. i dunwantoseecertainppl.nowhys,but yeah

2008-12-16T22:53:00.002+08:00

okays..there are suddenly alot of surprises going on
firstly,the whole district knows that i'm sick during camp. i feel so weird until yushan tells me why.
secondly rachel cut bangs! its so unlike her to be cutting bangs,cause she doesnt seem the kind that will try out these kind of hairstyle. Though she loves to try out new things,and said before quite many times in genting that she wanted to try cutting bangs(?!) but i never thought that she's serious about it. chatting with her on msn now. she told me sch reopen probably no more,cause will grow longer. but she replied this

RACHELLAM; says:
noope. long le. unless i go cut again
=x i missed camp ilove Melissa!<3 says:
ohh
RACHELLAM; says:
haha but i think i will haaha

2008-12-16T12:10:00.003+08:00

Hello world! ahahs..i dunnno why i'm starting like that,but oh yeah..
today is the last day of church camp-heroes.
but i still cant believe it.i've missed it
can you believe it?! chrystal has just missed a church camp just because of 1 sickness.damn
i just dunno why. 1 simple sickness has made me fall into Satan's hands.
my energy was gone.moodless.boredddd
i had totally nothing to do but to just surrender to my sickness.
before camp,i stood strong,keep telling myself that i can recover.kept praying
but it just doesnt seem to be working? why?
i kept wondering.sigh
instead of getting better,it got worse.people keep telling me.you can get better you can get better.
but isit because of my sickness?my mood? i dont seem to trust them.my shepherd,my dearest.
i dunno why.i guess everything just feels so out of place.
the old life i have been having.eversince i went genting.
come back,stayed at home,did my daily routine
went out with family.friend came my house.watch tv.enjoyed.
after which,sick.freakit.
i have no idea.i enjoyed this life.
isit because of nt meeting my cg,my unit for quite long time?
or isit because of out-of-place?
idunnowhy,ihavebeenfeelingthisforaverylongtime.onlysomepplknows.
i've hinted.but guess what? only my sisters asked about it.
sisters-real sisters.nt bloodrelated,but yeah..
jocelyn,rachel.....
nobodyreallytrulyknowhowifeel.onlysisters
thats what sisters are there for yeah?
Ann Gie,Shermaine,Jocelyn....

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oh yeah,this is for jocelyn: i've just relinked you sister!sorry take like ages to do that.sorry yeah?(: and i want go out with you!(:

i dunnowhy,i'm missingyou

2008-12-09T18:58:00.005+08:00

051208
Hehe..woke up at 8 lidat i think,then went to eat breakfast at Hainan restaurant again.Jacqueline was tired,so went back hotel to sleep with her mother,while the rest of the adults decided to grab the final chance and luck to go to play in the casino. Haha. After that,me,val,rach went out to the outdoor theme park thr to cui1 feng1. Walk walk around that area. Wnted to go to the genting skyway there. Den we saw this staircase and thought that it leads to somewhere else,so we climbed all the way up,just to realise that we can just take2 escalators up. == so viewed the outdoor theme park scene from there. No time le so didn’t manage to explore the genting skyway and rushed back to the hotel. enjoyed the scenery. its nice from the 8th floor yeahhh! hhas..after which a cab trip down to KL!(: SHOPPING! hha..my all-time-favourite together with my close friends.(:
KL there were madly in sales.
SINGAPORE-20%off
KL-75%off
siao rite? hahas..shopping spree for me!xD in the end rachel and valente bought stuffs too! yeahh man!
061208
shopped in the morning. after which checked out 2 rooms at 12. left the other room still occupied cause poor jacqueline is sick. so yeap. went out to shop shop shop. lunch-ed and then waited for bus to bring us back to singapore!(:

ps:rachel slept like a pig on the bus back!HAHA

after which bought alot of chewing gum and tidbits frm the stop place and HSM1&2!(: heh..then head back to msia customs and spore customs. and i gt 12 pkts of chewing gums on my body=/ and 4 gt caught. jocelyn was laughing at me cans! stupid girl! haha..rachel and her family also laughed at me lorh.stupid rachel wanted me to blog about this.make me so paiseh on my own blog.haha

i didnt post much photos of the third and last day. thats because rachel and i decided to make each other jobs easier! we fen1 gong1 he2 zuo4! i post the details,she post the pictures! so more photos go her blogg!www.the-twentyfivehourdrive.blogspot.com hhas..

HAPPY PARTNERSHIP RACHEL!;DD

2008-12-09T10:02:00.009+08:00

041208
Woke up early in the morning at 8. Then realise some stupid thing happen to me. Zzz. After which,feeling abit uncomfortable. Went macs for breakfast. Val and Rach eat hotcakes. But i ate chicken porridge. Dunno why,i love eating porridge outside. The chicken porridge in macs is not bad! Haha..quite nice.(: after which went to outdoor theme park to playyyy! Haha.. Rachel’s grandparents went in casino instead.
1)We played the pirate ship! Hahas..since it has shorter queue! We wanted to sit the last one. But its taken. So we were one of the people behind. So we sat in the middle. Haha..its so cooling can!xD
2)Yupp, went to sit the pirate train! It was not scary. Me and Rachel 1 train,Rach’s mother and Val,Rach’s dad and Jacq. Me and Rachel practically made funny noises throughout the trip. Its not at all scary la ==
3) kena psycho-ed by RACHEL to sit the stupid CYCLONE rollercoaster. Remembered last time when i was still small,i cried after sitting flying dragon roller coaster. But now,cyclone is worse than that. It has all the U-shaped turns and everything. Its so scary,and i couldn’t even believed that i actually went to sit that. But its a really great breakthrough for me to be sitting those kind of scary rides when i always refuse to in the past. I decided to place my trust in my father,and went to sit at the FIRST seat together with the crazy girl(Rachel). Hahas..my fear was somewhat overcome.i couldn’t believe that i actually told Rachel that i want to sit the train roller coaster as well as flying dragon roller coaster.=x wad a great breakthrough(((:
4) went up to sit space shot. If u dunno what it is,go and try it out! Its super fun! Haha..me and Rachel went to sit that. while valente,Jacqueline,their parents went to sit the ferris wheel. Queue super long. =/ but it was worthwhile! We saw this super gay guy who screamed like girl. I can still remember it =/ hahah. Me and Rachel were like talking at the peak enjoying the scenery when suddenly the thing went down. We shouted,enjoyed the cold wind!(:
5) went to join rachel’s father in the go-kart. So sad valente queued with us for quite long already then cant go cause of height limit.
6) sat the ‘mao mao chong’ monorail. It was very slow. But the wind was super windy and the scenery was nice. When we reach out our hands,it seemed as if we are touching clouds! Val and rach went to wave to people sitting on rides in the indoor theme park(: but 1 stupid family went to separate the 6of us. And Rachel was super angry with them. After coming down,she showed attitude but yet the family doesn’t seem to care.
After which,it rained while we queued for the boating thing. So sadddd =/ that time i had a bad stomachache,so i went back to the hotel first to rest and sleep first. The next moment Rachel they all came back as well. Around 4,went back to the theme park to queue for the boating again.
7)Waited super long there,then finally got to play! Me and Val sat tgt. Our boat number was 6! And i had a fun time ‘ka-jiaoing’ him. Hahahaha..i forget the pedals were linked when 2 ppl cycle. So a period of time,i didn’t really cycle much,and the pedals moved. So being a blur sotong,i asked valente:”ehh,how come i didn’t peddle the thing can move ah?” and he was like”cause i’m peddling!” hahah..
went to queue for the water splash. But because of the stupid rain,it was cancelled=/ didn’t get to sit that and the chuchu train roller coaster and flying dragon rollercoaster.=x Rachel was more sad as she didn’t get to sit her flying coaster and corkscrew(inverted rollercoaster). Saw 3clowns! Rachel had wanted to take photo with them for quite long,finally gt chance! Hahah..so there was this tall guy who stand on stilts. And the silly girl went to ask” 我可以踢你吗?”and the person replied “可以, 最多我跌倒而已吗.” So humorous can. haha
So,ended up back in first world plaza. Haa. Rachel’s dad wanted to go in to find their grandparents. Den wanted to bring Rachel along. So he purposely wear cap(which was not allowed),to let Rachel walk into the casino while the guard stop him. Then Rachel walked in too slow already,and the person asked her:”Passport please” or something lidat. So she walked out to find the rest of us. Hahaha.and she started saying”i dun look like 21 yrs old meh? This dress make me look super old leh.” And she kept talking about it. The next moment Rach’s mother go in and find them. Awhile later,Rachel’s grandparents came down from the lift. They didn’t stay in the casino whole day,but went back to the hotel to bathe first. The casino had 3 exits! So her grandparents went in to look for Rachel’s parents. While the 4 of us-rachel,me,valente,Jacqueline waited outside,with Rachel still saying:i don’t look 21 meh?! hahahahha
After dinner-ing at Hainan restaurant,went back outdoor theme park to sit relaxing rides. Sit on the kiddo train. Valente fetched me ;P i take pictures of sceneries,cause i lazy to drive. Hahahaah
Sat the aeroplane ride once and the Dumbo elephant ride twice. Then sat the merry-go-round ride. At the start we raised our hand,after which we all don’t dare as it was super high. After coming down,all 4 of us were giddy. wanted to sit some ride de.(forget the name) that requires weight limit(min35kg) then val was like:"i'm not gonna waste my time again like the go-kart.queue already then because of the weight limit then cant sit"so he and Jacq jump straight to measure their ewight and the ppl thought they wanted to cut queue and wanted to scold them haha. Then sat pirate ship with Rachel again. Enjoyed the super cold wind(: and went back to the hotel after taking photos. Jacqueline fell asleep first while i counted my money and the numbers don’t tally=/ then me and Rachel were talking and talking and talking until we fall asleep. haha

PICTURES!;DD

pirate train!

pirate train! oh,val was closing his eyes throughout! haha

taking of photos

spaceshot! we literally flew out of our seat

while we were queuing for go-kart,she was taking photo(:

go-kart! rachel's dad

back at the hotel! the legs belong to Jacqueline!

under the mushroom!;D

BOATING!;D

clown!

the tall one! still gt another one,but he went off alr):

a journey to go...

phototaking!

aeroplane ride! jacq nd val went high up and me and rach went so low

Jacqueline!

Valente!

DUMBO!-Jacqueline

DUMBO!-Valente

MERRY GO ROUND!

With some london bus!(:

Ring ring!

HAHA!

hehe

TABBY! Jacq's tiger!

2008-12-08T15:00:00.002+08:00

the stupid blogger is freaking not moving. so i cant post about the second day of my genting trip.
RACHEL! blame it on the freaking blogger,not me! i tried posted alot alot alot of times and now my com is freaking LAGGED! zzzzz

2008-12-07T14:49:00.011+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! I AM BACK FROM GENTING!!!!!;DDDDD actually,i really wanna thank God for this genting trip.(: it really let me know more about God Himself,as well as letting me enjoy this whole trip. This short break that i have taken for myself was paid off. Everything was aligned back,back to normal!;D Well,i shall start off from the first day of the trip!
031208
Woke up at 5am to prepare and get ready. After which went down to wait for Rachel's cab to turn in to fetch me at 5.45am! after which set off for Golden Mile!;DD waited,settled admin stuffs and hopped on to the bus! hehe..set on the single seats!(: rachel was infront of me and that silly girl went to adjust her seat all the way down=x so bad rite she. haha,but still i lived with it :P and i just continued sleeping while she stared out of the window!(: Rachel was so excited that she couldnt even sleep can! Jacqueline,Valente,me were sleeping but not Rachel. siao one lorhh.. after the malaysia custom,i was enjoying the view while listening to my mp3. i was just listening to the song-DIVINE EXCHANGE. and admiring the outside scenery. when the Holy Spirit just stir in my heart this part:
I live to worship you
I breathe to worship you
yes lord,the reason why i am here on earth is because u created me. i live to worship you and i breathe to worhsip you. u created the nature and scenes for us to enjoy. in such nice weather. father,i worship you alone.
yeap,sat a long long journey of dunno how many hours. but halfway jam. so only manage to reach genting at around 4plus! yupp,went to the hotel,checked in and my room number was 5938! my roommates were:Rachel and Jacqueline!!(:so funny,my biscuit was super fat as there were air inside due to air pressure.We cam-whored abit in the hotel room and then went to the kopitiam and eat. i ate chicken ramen! its ex though to me! RM16! hahaha. Watched Rachel’s parents play archery.after which,played indoor theme park. Bought the FAMILY PACKAGE!(:
Here is the order of what we sat!
1)we sat the roller coaster. Which valente was scared to sit but was somewhat forced by me and Rachel!(: wanted to sit at the front,but ended up in the middle.=/ sat with valente. Rachel and Jacq at the front
2) family ride,which rachel and valente climbed over and we camwhored like siao before returning
3)the red chuchu train,which a boy sat beside me and a girl beside rachel.
the conversation with the boy was funny.
Me:hello!
Boy:(dao)
Me:hello!
Boy:(pointing to some other direction)
Me:hello! ni3 cong2 na3 yi1 ge4 guo2 jia1 lai2 de4?
Boy:(dao)
Me:(repeated)
Boy(dao)
Me:(repeat again)
Boy:(pointing to the shop) cong2 yun3 ding3 jia1
Yupp,and i was like thinking:huh?genting house? Lol
And man,i tell you,the boy was super high pitch. Dun see him small small cant shout. He merely just called to his dad was super high pitch.i gt shocked and dropped my camera. When i bend down to pick it up,i knock my head against the train accidentally.
4) the carousel,which me and rachel were nt allowed to sit on the horses
5)the ferris wheel which turned dunno how many rounds,and we camwhored again
6)the bumper car,i sat with Jacq .She drive the car,and i think because of the weight,our bumper car couldn’t move and Rachel and Valente kept banging us. So malu! A guy keep asking us to step on the peddle. By the time we can move abit,times up=x
persuaded Val to sit roller coaster and he readily agreed! So cool right?
7)went to sit the roller coaster for the 2nd time and ended up at the back! This time me and Rachel sat tgt with Val and Jacq in front of us! Oh,forget to tell ur 1 thing. RACHEL LAM IS CRAZY. She keep raising up her hands during roller coaster rides.
8)bumper car again! This time each person drive once! So funnnn
9) finally found the 4D motion master that we wanted to sit and went in. Caught the 8pm show. But we bought burger king KIDS MEAL! And eat before that! Hahah
After coming out from the motion master,went to meet the adults,as promised, drank water,eat biscuits and rushed to play again
10) roller coaster for the 3rd time! This time we let people go first. And we manage to get the front seat! Whee~ its super duper cooling and fun! Hahaha.. that roller coaster rocks!(:

After playing the indoor theme park,went to the arcade area. Mario Kart and some game that requires throwing of balls. Met these 3 unreasonable ppl who feigned ignorant when so many people were waiting to play the game,but yet they still continue playing continuously for 3 times. After which we played. And each time we gt 50 tickets! Which was the max (; haha..we didn’t realise the time. And decided to play until we have 200 tickets to change for stuffs(: we let people play first and waited lorh. So funny,Rachel super cockeye. She mistook a cup as a candle! Stupid rite?:PHaha..ate fries from macs. The shaker fries is nice!;D played until 11 plus then rushed back to the hotel. Slept at 12 plus. Hehehe.

PICTURES!!!(:

see the beautiful scenery?(:

Rachel and me! on the bus!

Valente and his dad-playing chess

Rachel,the exciting girl

The biscuit with air

ROOM NUMBER!

cam-whoring time! rachel ask me dont jump on the bed but i still did ;P

hehehe..roommates!(:

archery

FAMILY!(:

on the GOLDEN bridge.though its nt golden

on the family ride!

indoor theme park view

chu chu train!

the small kiddo with high pitch voice

the carousel!

ferris wheel!

bumper car! we LOVE it!(:

front seat of rollercoaster

i have alot alot more things to post! will post about 041208 tmr!(: alot of pictures=/

2008-12-02T21:08:00.002+08:00

hehe..well,i'm going to Genting TOMORROW! ahhaha..its less than 10 hours and i would have to reach Golden Mile. people dont miss me!

I'll reply tags hereeee!;D

RACHEL-hehe..though i didnt reply your 30dec tag on time,but it still applies even on 2nd dec! cause i'll be seeing you tmr!(: but its nt for tuition, but for HOLIDAYS!!! whee~ i'm so excited. but you cant go crazy shopping like me. sad leh=/ later i 1 person zi4 high!=x

XIANGYING-hello sheep! hehe..aww,so sweet. LOL! haha..i'll miss you too! but i tot someone earlier on this afternoon say wad u wont miss me one lorh ;PPP hahahhahahahha..
[look forward to shen2 mi4 ren2 wu4 email!(:]

HUI HUI- hello girl! hehe..havent meet up with you yettt =x enjoy yourself at hongkong yea!(: hehe..HSM ROCKS! lolll

2008-11-30T13:11:00.003+08:00

Father i thank you for all the blessings that you've given me. Thank you for enabling my sheep to be able to come down for service each and everytime. Everytime situation may seem hopeless,but God you hear me crying out to you in prayer. Each time u create a miracle,you make me feel like crying cause Jesus! you are just so real in my life.You're a forever faithful God.
I also thank you for Jessica. Though my dearests are all overseas,but you really sent Jessica to talk to me,to understand me,and comfort me. Thank you for blessing me with such a wonderful sister. Now things may not turn out right. But i know that problems are for me to mature and grow. I'll look beyond your promises. My parents may fail me,my sheep may fail me,my friends may fail me,but You'll never fail me. God i thank you for being so real in my life. In Jesus's name,AMEN!

2Cor 4:8-12
8We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. 12So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

2008-11-18T21:22:00.000+08:00

YAYYY! i manage to put in musc--songs frm HSM3! heheh..xD

2008-11-18T21:06:00.003+08:00

grr..i dunno why,today when i woke up,my eyes became swollen ><
irritating luhhs.. its like red,swollen and affecting my eyes!!!!!!=x

2008-11-17T21:36:00.002+08:00

haiyooo..i now declare that VALERIE YAP YING JIE IS THE LAMEST PERSON EVER! hahas..read on to know why.
okays,i was just telling her how sad i was over some minor stuffs..after which,this was wad happen through msn.... ;DD

+Valerie! writes:
(drew a yellow banana)
+Valerie! says:
bananana let you eat
+Valerie! says:
hehee
THERE IS FREEDOM IN THE NAME OF JESUS! wheee~ i love Melissa!<3:
LOL!
THERE IS FREEDOM IN THE NAME OF JESUS! wheee~ i love Melissa!<3:
inedible de
+Valerie! says:
virtual eating
+Valerie! writes:
(drew a pile of dung)
+Valerie! says:
virtual smelling
+Valerie! says:
dont u think now ur room abit smelly..
THERE IS FREEDOM IN THE NAME OF JESUS! wheee~ i love Melissa!<3:
u really very lame lehh
THERE IS FREEDOM IN THE NAME OF JESUS! wheee~ i love Melissa!<3:
==
+Valerie! says:
hehehehe no lah
THERE IS FREEDOM IN THE NAME OF JESUS! wheee~ i love Melissa!<3:
LOL!><
+Valerie! writes:
(drew a red rose)
+Valerie! says:
smell nice already
+Valerie! says:
rose for youuuu
+Valerie! says:
pretty lady
+Valerie! says:
(:
+Valerie! says:
:D
+Valerie! says:
:$ (if u dunno what is that can try it on msn!)

so lame rite?xD too bad the drawings couldnt be copied and paste =x

2008-11-17T15:36:00.000+08:00

WHEE~ just recieved news that i'll be going GENTING! with Rachel and family!;DDwas waiting and praying. That if there's something on for me to experience God in genting,the let God make a way! cause at first the situation wasnt that good. like i might not be able to go and everything. But the situation got better! hehe..and now i can go! though cant be in the same room as Rachel alone,but at least its better than cant go,or staying alone!;DD haahs..got to plan plan plan. finish my hols hwk and revising by the time i go genting. or else after camp i gt to mug which is ain't a good thing as there will be alot of activities going along.setting objectives for genting trip too!;D

2008-11-14T19:07:00.002+08:00

After all the people left for holidays and were busy with doing their own stuffs and i realise how much i really love them.

In the past,i always just think that i only love Ann Gie,Mabel and Melissa loads!

But it was only this yr May when i realise how much i admire Xiao Yi when she left for Huston.

When Mabel used to be MIA for months,i kip telling myself that its ok,its ok. Until when she came for bazaar and had to leave 9 days later.

Before that,when Dawn was busy with her O levels,i recalled times whereby i could just pour things out very easily to her. I can just cry out in tough times,or smile or laugh when she entertained me everytime i am sad. Thinking of how soon and very soon,she will be going on to lead her life in the way God will use her and that she will leave East make me feel like crying.

And when the holidays come,how i wish Ann Gie is really there to hear me crap,where the small lame stuffs that we shared always never fails to brighten up my day!;D

1 week ago,when Jessica left for Korea,just realise how much i love her too! A very good person to talk to when i meet problems with followupping,how burdened we two feel as 1 heartbeat to win the schools for God's kingdom.

And now, when Xiangying just become my sheep and she's gone to ipoh yesterday night and only be back on wednesday. haiis..

Now i realise that who are the people that i really miss,love loads!<33

2008-11-14T10:51:00.007+08:00

yay! here it goes! hehe..i shall start blogging my whole entire week since its so WONDERFUL!<3
MONDAY!(:
i had to stay at home ): hahas..but its okay! BERNADETTE came my house and we played guitar! hehe..she reached my house at 10 plus! haha..she is so kuku! xD after which she had to go for caregroup and then SHARMAINE came! hehe..and as usual,she came to my house,starting off without not wanting to pack. in the end,she ended up packing my table! hehe..but she said on wed tt she only managed to pack 1/8! of my table ><

WEDNESDAY!(:
hahas..caregroup! at cornerstone! i was super nervous. sorry teh ): hha..after which went to burger king and teh met me and sharmaine for a while. XIANG YING IS MY SHEEP! so if Xiangying happen to see this,u know who is ur shepherd! haahs..i told u already. hehe.. yay! I LOVE MY SHEEP! lols..its my first time having a sheep! cause all the past were all my followuppies. haha!

THURSDAY!(:
went SAFRA to meet yingjie for shepherding! she let me do the DISC test! and i became an IS! last time i was an IC. but i think change le bahs ): hehe..and after which yingjie taught me halfway and i nid to rush off to meet Bao Yi to do project. So got Ying Jie to go teach xiangying guitar! sorry xiangying! didnt go to ur house ><

FRIDAY!(:
staying at home today! hehe..to study and help my mummy print stuffs. hehe
I NEED TO PLAN MY STUDY TIME LIAO! hehe

this is a mini note to MELISSA!
hello my first ever followuppie! hhe..its a great joy to be hanging out with you! remember our ikea date! book a date with me!(: tmr is the 11th month!<3>

another mini note to XIANGYING!
hehe..hello sheep! i am so excited to be taking care of you! lets grow together in the Lord yea!
thanks for everything u have helped me or done to me so far! especially the birthday affirmation and yesterday buying ribena for me! i felt so touched really to have u as my sister and sheep! hehe..LOVE YOU LOADS!<33

2008-11-09T23:10:00.005+08:00

Today's posts wil be about 2 things!
NUMBER ONE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHILDHOOD FRIENDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!;DDDDDD
wondering who's that? thats Kwan Le Yuan! lols
Heard from my mother that i know him since 4 yrs old! he and his siblings! haha..so cool rite! its already like the 11th year of our friendship this yr! time flies! but ever since my cousins moved away frm their old house,i hardly see them anymore): thats why we didn keep in contact. it's only when i realise that Ngai Ying also know him through tuition den i started talking to him in msn! haha..he grew! but heard that he still quite childish! haha..HO NGAI YING! why didn invite him come freedom? invite him come service lehh..i want see my childhood friend. See who is taller! hahah..okay la.. wonder how tall/short he is,wonder how fat/skinny he is,wonder how mature/childish he is.. wonder wonder wonder! this is what u will do when u have never seen someone for more than 5 years? i guess? haha..

NUMBER TWO!
KRISTY HO NGAI YING BECOME MY SILLY PARTNERRRRRRR!!!!;DDDDD
hahas..tht silly girl! want disturb my childhood friend! hehe..but its okay! she loves me! haha..feel so touched! LOL! frm today onwards! 091108,Ngai Ying has officially become my silly partner! and she will be doing silly things tgt with me! eh,NONO! is we will do silly things TOGETHER! hahas..

2008-11-08T21:53:00.002+08:00

hhe..shall blog about service today! sung 2 new praise song and 1 new worhsip song! heheh..and Meiting and Louisa came!
CONGRATS TO HER WHO ACCEPTED JESUS INTO HER LIFE!
I dunno if she will be reading this post! but wanna encourage you to grow strong yea! hehe..spend time with God! reading the book of John! pray! talk to Him! hehe..Your life is gonna change girl! hehe..trust in Him yea!
After which had district huddle! played ice and water! haha..the first round(east b,grads,east d2) played and the catchers won! cause the ratio of catchers to players was like 10:20+ haha..the boundary very small mahs. then very easy to catch. den the second round(east a,east c,east d1) played! then dunno why,those suppose-to-be catchers became players! so the catchers were lesser. then also got ppl 'fake die' hahas..
after that! WEEKLY TALKSHOW WITH JACQ! hehe.. my SM-Carinna got breakthrough! she wore some costume that made her look feminine! hehe..though she had never wear those things before i think! hehe..and the talk was so funny!hehe.. my another SM-Luan Chun also participated! she still make jelly! hahas..

2008-11-08T21:38:00.004+08:00

hahas..well,wanna blog about THANKSGIVING! hehe..God has bless me many many! in the area of TRANSPORT! hehe..
well,friday was a very busy busy busy day for me! went all the way to BOON LAY after school to meet the blogshop person to make payment for the clothes.after which,travelled down to TP to meet shepherd! den my shepherd want to go home and put books and take her clothes. so went to her house for a while! and i finally saw the surprise that Bern and my other SMs kip asking me to see! its not really that surprising la. when i step into the living room,i saw it le ;PPPP plan failed! hehe..saw my shepherd's graduation book. hehe xD after which when going to go out that time. YINGJIE REVEALED THE SECRET! ahahs..so funny! yingjie and xiangying scream/shout and then the cat will go 'meow'! lols! hehe..they didn know that i got abit of breakthrough in the area of cats already! hahaha..after which bus-ed back to TP again! den transfer to bus 15 to PASIR RIS! Yingjie shepherd-ed me at macs while xiangying played her psp. den after shepherding yingjie and xiangying kip wanting to find chances to play psp. hehe..6.30 den went down for decor meeting at PLAZA SING MACS! hhe..had fun there planning! felt so excited for the coming events! people! Go for HEROES! hahas..its a thing that cannot be missed! its gonna be real cool! the teachings and everything! GO FOR IT MAN! hehehe..xD i promised my mum that i will reach home by 10.30. at first she didnt allow,but she did after i 'bargained' with her. hehe. left ps abit later than my calculated time. was worrying and praying for God to send me home asap! in the end,everything went on well! when i just go down the stairs at dhoby gaut,the train just arrived! after which at cityhall,i just get down the train from red line,the opposite train at green line just arrived too! so cool rights? hehe..it was super God-blessed! hehhe.reached pasir ris inter at around 10.15 like that. then 10 plus bus abit hard to wait de. but its like i just walk into the queue,then the bus just arrived!
God is such a cool God cans! hehe..i reached home at 10.28! and my mother was like smiling! hahahha! LOLS. i have never been punctual in the past! hehe..before that my mother was scolding cause my results bad mahs. den finally she gt smile! haha. God has really blessed me!;DDDDDDDDDDD
I SERVE A COOL AND POWERFUL GOD THAT CAN SPEED UP MY TRANSPORT TIME!YAY!
wanna know how cool it is,its for u to experience Him!

2008-11-08T21:03:00.002+08:00

hahas..i got tagged! by MY SM!-CRIMSON TOH!(:

Pick your birth month→ Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you→ Copy to your blog→ Tag 10 people from your friends list birthmonth:October!;DDDDD
JANUARY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
FEBRUARY:Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
MARCH:Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
APRIL:Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
MAY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic. Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
JUNE:Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
JULY:Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
AUGUST:Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
SEPTEMBER:Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized.Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize.DEBATE!xD Stubborn. Quiet NOISY ANDbut able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing.Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships.Systematic.
OCTOBER:Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. ~~Loves to take things at the center.(used to do that!)~~ Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature.~~Touchy and easily jealous.~~ Concerned.~~Loves outdoors.~~ Just and fair.~~Spendthrift.~~ Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.(though they can be annoying at times!)
DECEMBER:Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize.Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

ps: i have no idea where is the november one.

anybody can just do the quiz! i lazy to tag ppl!xD

2008-11-04T22:12:00.002+08:00

hehe..i wanna thank God for a person! that is..
MING HSUN!((:
she is lending me her spare chinese dictionary tomorrow! THANK YOU!;DD

2008-11-04T16:41:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is o level chinese..sian lorhh..mugging now.. testpapers to do =/ sian sian. i know i got to do my best then God will do the rest. Budden i now really no mood to study lehh..how?=/

2008-11-01T23:03:00.002+08:00

yayy! changed new blogskin! so loveee it!xD just that dunno how put music in nia=x someone help me!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-31T21:37:00.003+08:00

yea man! TODAY IS FINALLY THE LAST DAY OF MY PHYSICS AND CHEM TUITION AT MY TUTOR'S HOUSE! hahas..i have been awaiting this day for very long. though my sciences are like CMI=x but i dun like the tutor. he slacks and smoke =x grrr.. >Our God is a faithful and understanding God!hehe..heard from my dearest caregroup member deng xiangying that there will be a shen2 mi4 ren2 wu4 coming! xD hehe..wonder who is that! hhaha..but i can roughly guess who already! hehe xDD

2008-10-30T16:59:00.007+08:00

yay!! FREEDOM WAS GREAT! hahas..though i went late for both services, i wanna thank God for all the visitors that came! east b3 hit 2 rows! cool right? well,after which went for second service with Adeline,Xin Ying and Josephine. wow! second service was so filled with many many people that we all got separated from one another ): hhas..after service went to istana park to find my group! hehe..they celebrated birthday for me! affirmations were cool! hehe.....
MY WISHES:
1) Be a shepherd of 3 by end november
2) Manjusri to be completed of 10 by camp!
3) For my spiritual walk to be closer and closer to God everyday

hhas..I LOVE EASTBEETHREE!<3

CONGRATS TO AMANDA AND HUIWEN FOR ACCEPTING CHRIST!may ur walk each day with our big big papa get closer and you can experience Him so so much more! Jesus loves you and so do I!<3

hehe..then on sunday morning-00.00 AM! alot of sms start flowing in!;D
when i wake up that time,there was like 16 sms! LOL xD
thankyou to all these people who wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!;DD
Fiona Teh
Xiang ying
Ying Hui
Liqing
Shermaine
Hui Wen
Amanda
Kimberly
Yan Jie
Ying Jie
Bernadette
Luan Chun
Misha
Ngai Ying
Tan Ann
Amy
Diondra
Carinna
Sylvina
Dennis Loh
Esther Teo
Amanda Loh
Jinyee
Constance
Shermaine Tang
Sheryl Tang
Meng Hong
Bao Yi
Ann Gie
Jill Jean
Hui Xian
Cherisse
Fiona Leow
Jessica
Samantha
Shi Yong
Wen Hui
Rasheed
Clarissa
Wei Tong
Jia Hui
Amanda
Joanne
Xue Yi
Su Ying
Rachel
Jocelyn
Shern
Ying Jie's mum
Petrina
Deon
Dawn Tay
Winstar
Aloysius
Yan Yu
Denise
Nigel(MJR)
Olivia
Jennifer (CPS)
Queenie
Teenie
Nicole
Melissa Kwek
Joshua
Alvin
Mei Mei
Nicole(CCSS)
Fion
Jia Hui(CCSS)
Man Ling
Louisa
Adeline
Han Yew
Lestari
Teng Chow
Xiang Xi
Yan Yun
Huan yi
Joanne
Candace
Jade
Kesha
Grace
Cher
Charmaine Choo
Qian Hui
Michelle
Lishan
thanks to the people for ur cards and presents too!
FEEL SO LOVED!

thank you to Jessica,Cherylmine,YingJie and Misha to come over to my house to pei me on my birthday!((:

2008-10-27T22:26:00.005+08:00

Quiz from Luan Chun's blog. (:
1) Ann Gie
2) Liling
3) Xiang Ying
4) Kristal
5) Bernadette
6) Ying Jie
7) Luan Chun
8) Misha
9) Fiona Teh
10) Sharmaine
11) Ying Hui
12) Dawn Tay
13) Melissa Kwek
14) Shermaine
15) Jessica
16) Esther Teo
17) Fiona Leow
18) MABEL!
19) Jocelyn
20) Queenie
Q1. What is your relationship with 14(Shermaine)?
hahas..sisters-in-christ,ex-pri schoolmatesxD
Q2. do you love 6(Ying Jie)?
yupp! me shepherd! lol
Q3. Did you see 13 naked before(Melissa Kwek)?
NOPE! lol
Q4. How did you know 5(Bernadette)?
once my SM! schmate,same church!
Q5.Is 9 a boy or girl(Fiona Teh)?
Girl la of course!
Q6. Is 7 your best friend(Luan Chun)?
hahas..nope,sisters! SM!
Q7. How old is 18 last year(Mabel)?
16!
Q8. What is 12's full name(Dawn)?
DAWN TAY MEI YU!<3
Q9. Did you kiss 17 before(Fiona Leow)?
Lols, nope.
Q10. Can 4 be in a relationship with you(Kristal)?
as friends! hahas
Q11. Who does 2 always hang out with(Liling)?
it depends! jacq,anngie,huanwoon,weeshan..
Q12. What school does 10 go to(Sharmaine)?
Chung Cheng (main), same as me. :D
Q13. What is 11's telephone number(Ying Hui)?
ask her luhhs..privacy lehhs
Q14. What did 1 tell you that you will always remember(Ann Gie)?
I love you. ou rock ((:
Q15. Are you very close to 15(Jessica)?
okok la..hehe
Q16. What is the very special thing that you like about 3 the most(Xiangying)?
hhas..her craziness!xD
Q17. What do you hate about 8 the most(Misha)?
I acceot her for who she is!;D
Q18. If people say bad things about 16. What will you do(Esther Teo)?
I will defend her of course!
Q19. Do you hate 20(Queenie)?
Of course not! my cousin lehh! she rock!<3
Q20. What language 19 speak(Jocelyn)?
English and Chinese lorhh!
You are the one next, who is gonna do this quiz! :D
Tay liling!
Melissa Kwek!
Ying Hui!
Dawn Tay!
Jocelyn!
Rachel!
Kristal!
Amanda(EB3)!

2008-10-12T12:05:00.001+08:00

WAAAAA! Today's gonna be a sian day for i am gna stay at home whole day. but i will update pictures and what happen days before later! gonna pakc my stuffs or parents will nag!

2008-10-11T23:23:00.002+08:00

WAA! I AM VERY TIRED!! but today service was cool! hehe..
Jesus,
lover of my heart,
author of my life.

2008-10-08T21:04:00.003+08:00

I FINALLY AND OFFICIALLY DECLARE TT TODAY IS THE END OF OUR EXAMS!!!;DD

yay! hehe xDDD well,God has blessed me alot in this period of exams! God is moving so greatly in my life! its like,i dont have nt much faith at all in the past in overcoming my exams. however,this time round,i gt so much faith that i really studied to my best! and tt even when i was anxious,i was constantly and reminded that i got a big big God behind me,together overcoming the exams! my fears were exchanged with His peace. though i know for my sciences are bad,but He is in control!

God moves in my ss paper! I spotted 1 theme to study and studied more only on the chapter on bonding Singapore chapter,and that chapter came out in the essay question! when teacher say tt nid study as a theme in essay! God is so cool rite?! xDDD

went to the BIG BIG ikea today to find Bern and Carinna! went together with Xiang Ying!!! hehe xDDDD THANK YOU CARINNA FOR UR HOTDOG! hehe..whee~ i really feel blessed to be in this family!;DD

2008-10-05T22:22:00.001+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! i only have 2 more papers! haha.. well,mugging hard! so i will only be updating more about exams after my last paper on wednesday! yepp xD

2008-09-28T11:00:00.001+08:00

AHHH! social studies tmr!=x i havent really absorbed much. i dont like the topic on conflict in multi ethnic societies!

2008-09-25T18:46:00.001+08:00

I AM HAVING A SERIOUS BAD STOMACHACHE! PLEASEEE PRAY FOR ME!
AND I SCREWED CHINESE TODAY.=X

2008-09-21T22:09:00.004+08:00

okays,here's as promised..the photos during Jacq's bday celebration!=)

EAST BC(in colours!) I LOVE YOU!

AGAIN!=)

EB3 with JACQ!

JACQ!=D

LIQING! we were zilian-ing with sylvina's camera!xD

okays..tmr is physics SPA!
God,i long for ur presence so so much more as i step into bio lab tmr to have my physics spa. I pray that you will anoint me with your wisdom o lord,that God,i will not be clumsy like my mock spa,but God i will be able to do the experiment right,do the questions well. You help me to not be clumsy like my chemistry mock spa and that use me to shine for you in this SPA. I thank you,in jesus's name,AMEN!
-I'M GONNA BE MORE THAN A CONQUEROR WITH A VICTORIOUS SPIRIT!-

2008-09-17T20:16:00.004+08:00

Whee~ my day today is as usual,feeling on high always..but there's a little exception today)):
FIRST period-CHEM MOCK SPA.
is damn irritating. i screwed it up totally.
Me and my tablemate-Ann screw together i suppose?lol
START- Ann broke the pipette by accident
END-I broke the conical flask. Rawr. luckily its a mock spa. but wad if its counted in CA2? den i GG already la.
MIDDLE-While pipetting the alkaline out,i SPILLED it! the alkaline spill over my whole table like shit and i was like what the heck?! thanks to anngie who helped me remove my things like calculator frm the tabletop. the alkali just spilled over my pratical paper. lucky i just drew the table out. or else i guess i will hate myself man.
THe stupid bubbled just gt to kip going up the pipette when it's nt suppose to.
Grr..like whatever. i'm so needed to mug hard for my EOY! studying for chem test tmr. thats all. bye

2008-09-14T11:22:00.010+08:00

Oh well,it has been alot of weeks ever since i updated. Haha..yesterday’s service was great! It teaches us about our studies and overcoming trials and temptations in our lives. Alot of events had happen,but i am too lazy to talk abt it one by one.
CROSS COUNTRY!
I know that its abit late to update about it. But the cross country was real fun! It was my first time walking 3.2 km for i had never done tt for the past 2 years as i went for councillor duty. Haha.
NATIONAL DAY!
It was well celebrated with the whole EAST FAMILY! And i love the fellow peeps in there! Haha...it let me know that i am never alone in serving god! Ahah..we celebrated Ying4 Jie’s bday and prayed for her! Ahah.. it was again raining int he afternoon before the parade starts!=/ but we prayed for the rain to stop! Prayed 3 times-prayer answered! Hehe..several brothers joined us in the prayer,like ruizong,prana and a few others. Dunno where i put tt picture. haha
JUMP!-Jesus U Must Praise!
Hahas..it’s a fun time jumping and praising God in fort canning! Seeing all the people who are enthusiastic to praise God’s goodness and worship God under the nice sky! It was raining in the afternoon but by God’s grace,He stopped the rain in the evening and allowed us to have a fun time
ADAM KHOO WORSHOP!
It rocks man! Haha..3 days of 13 hours spent in school. Talking crap as well as learning things. It was an enjoyable experience. I dun understand why people say that its a waste of time,but i felt tt its meaningful. I rather be at that workshop ever y school day to study my subjects than to be in the boring classroom setting where the teachers are boring,scolding people and waste abt half and hour,and always make the pupils dislike them and blah blah..it was fun! AMIN-ninaninanina! Haha..ANDREA-yea babe!haha..suet peng(dunno how spell) with a nickname of carebear! And LEROY-with his stories. Interesting ones. Haha..it really taught me that one must have a goal in life. I had never once thought of a goal in my life,just leading life as the days go by. Though its a workshop,but i went it with God! And God struck me with things here and there! Especially about my academics wise. Its beneficial,my class were horny people.but they were the people who really contributed to the whole atmosphere! Thanks to the people who went to the workshop! I LOVE YOU GUYS! Lets continue to give our 100 percent in our studies! Remembering that the PAST IS NOT EQUALS TO THE FUTURE and make CHOICES wisely as it have CONSEQUENCES! Ahha
MOONCAKE FESTIVAL CELEBRATION!
Well,CIP-selling of yellow ribbons. Haha..Xue Yi was my buddy in selling! Then night time was the CIP of bringing the old folks.
JACQ’S BIRTHDAY!
Yesterday we also celebrated Jacq’s bday! Haha..it was a fun time and alot of photos were taken.but i dun hv the photos with me,will upload it when i have it!

PHOTOS!

020808-Kesha's birthday! sweet 16!

Yuzi!!((:

080808-Ann Gie!<3

most of the 3GR gals (:

Alicia,Kristal,Bao Yi,Zi Hui,Me! ((:

Javin Ng!!((:

Ying4 Jie-star on 090808!(:

Joy and Jing Jing!

Happy Javin with Tired Ying4 Jie

JUMP-Bernnn!

CCHMS sec2 gals

Misha-SM!<3

Melissa!<3

EB3!<33

Fiona Leoww!<3

Adam Khoo workshop-Doing Chiwawas by the lake!

Chiwawas!

010908-Amanda,Yi Fan,Me

Bao Yi!(:

Reginaa!((: she's cute ain't it?

With Melissa and Regina!

I MISS MY STUDY BUDDIES!!!!!=// the times that we had studying together,and cam-whoring together when we are tired and having a break from our studies. when can we study again? AIRPORT IS OUR OLD PLACE YEA?! ahha

Study Buddy #1-BERNADETTE!

Study Buddy #2-SIEW LING!

Study Buddy #3-ESTHER TEOO! couzzie!

(studying with her is fun!)

Study Buddy #4-ESTHER LEOW! fun time studying together at tcc!

2008-08-29T22:30:00.005+08:00

haha..okay,sorry long time no update le..hehe.. oh well,hectic schedule..hehe..alot of things had happen that i wanted to blog about..but its okay.. hehe..restructuring results gna cum out tmr..i am anxious for it! ahh! change of shepherd? change of caregroup? i am clueless of wads gonna happen to me..hai,i am there to let god place me in wherever effective for me to grow and expand the kingdom! whatever it will be,i will stay strong and obey! hehe..
okay..another thing..heard frm my mum that i am gonna go to my grandmother's house next sunday..is like wlao,what the heck..i dun wan go! have u ever seen people,who is never grateful for what u have done?being in chung cheng means it must be a great thing?! take amath means i must be super smart and know everything?! i know of a person..and its my aunt! its like..she is super sacarstic can! i help my cousin with pri 6 work..u think its that simple? like hello,i dun even learn certain topics now in school..such as model drawings. percentages and stuffs..all we are learning are topics like trigo,matrices,partial fractions and stuffs..are all those things done in pri sch? no rite? obviously ppl will forget la! but at least i bother to take the time to think and solve it out for u. when i will usually give it up after trying 3 times. and its like i wasted 5-6 hours of my precious time helping u to solve,when i actually need those time to study! i am helpng nt for my auntie's sake. but my cousin. cause i love him and want him to score. if its for my aunt,no way i am gonna do it. i am trying super hard to be a salt and light. i am improving in school. but in my family,its really freaking hard. they just have to kip nagging and scolding and screaming. if they were to stop those things,it will seem like the hardest thing on earth to do for them. sacarsm is what i experienced greatly. especially in my aunt's house..source of sacarsm-my auntie..how great to have an aunt lidat huh? not even a single thank you,but several insults shooting at me..like: wa,u in chung cheng leh! sec3 liao! so simple p6 questions u also have to take 2 hours to solve 1! u call urself a sec3 student? my god! and u take amath?!. wa siao.i was thinking: God,why am i so mad to be helping and wasting my time on p6 stuffs that is nt so necessary for me to focus on when i have better stuffs to do? Hai,but its due to my love i have for my cousin. I have to stand the thousands of sacarsm and insults being spoken to me. and my mum tell me that she joking. oh well,joking uh? thats so funny..the tone isn at all funny or joking. u guys wanna noe,can go with me to my aunt's house..it will save me so much more. to have ur around. at least let me know that i am not at all alone in doing the p6 problems and being stuck at it. by then,if my aunt wanna say more insults that we students should remember our p6 work or else how to go for o levels,i can prove to her that she is absolutely wrong wrong!
I am so gonna save myself by sticking myself to my mp4/hp and kip revising my work. so that if my aunt call me,i can block out the noise pollution ad concentrate on my studies..HAHA.. too bad! not gonna earn myself more insults!

2008-08-10T23:53:00.001+08:00

hello! hahs..sorry for nt updating recently! bt due to my tiredness and laziness..i am lazy to upload pictures frm my phone now. so do wait patiently for them yea? hhas..

2008-08-02T23:57:00.002+08:00

sian sian sian..it was a total siansation for me..I am sick! oh gosh,once again. my body i feeling weak,i can be coughing badly. weak weak immune system. i had no energy to do my stuffs,feel lethargic. there are many things that are awaiting for me to do, but i dun hv the spirit and the feeling to do it. why why why? feels like sleeping,but cant seem to sleep well. sleep in class always. screwed all my tests and quizzes. what in the world is happening? i seems to understand,but cant really apply. my brain cant work as good as before..i slackened down alot. sec3 isnt the year that i should be slacking. but it seems to be it now for i cant seem to hv the energy to do things..i am tired tired tired.

2008-07-31T21:34:00.003+08:00

yay! NAPFA IS OFFICIALLY OVER FOR MEEEE!!!!!xDD though i didn manage to hit 15 mins plus,but at least i gt my C! yay! now i had 27 points with 4As,1B,1C! woots! haahas..but stupid stomach.make me have stomachache,i run that time feel like puking..irritating la.. However,i thank God for ANNGIE!! she is a damn wonderful friend who really keeps pushing me on and on..everytime i stop,she will try to push me forward to run. When i refuse to run,she will accompany me,kip asking me to walk big steps,motivated me that i can do it,asking me to go on. Even when i walk,she find small chances to encourage me to run.

Sorry Ann Gie,i felt so sorry to make you pull me to run along,and i stopped alot of times. You must have wasted the energy to push me along. Sorry girl,but still thanks alot for the effort that you took. I help you burn more calories!HA!xD though malau is nt there to pull me or to motivate me,but thank you for being there! haha..i think i kind of conked out. I think when i cried cuz of my stomachache,i scared you. sorry=x but still thanks for helping me take the hot water and finding the panadol for me!! Know that your put in effort for me! so touched! even pangseh your buddy. though i din get 15 mins plus,but i am still glad that i've improved and to know that i am nt alone in running that stupid 2.4! thank you girl! LOVE YA LOADS!!!<33

Alicia! thank you for running up and down the stairs and stuffs together with Ann Gie to try to help me find panadol and helped me when i am in great pain. Also helping me to return uncle the money! haha..thanks for accompanying me when i am in the recovering process and going to english class late! Thanks for the extra mile girl! LOVE YA TOO!<33

Kristal yang! my dear girl! its okay that ur timing is like that! Monday will be that try yea! hahas..GO GO GO!xD dun think abt the pain in ur stomach! kip chionging! hehe..like wad i have told u! get it over and done with!once u run finish this time,ur stomachache can be cured slowly! yepp,u have nt conquered timing,but u had conquered FRIENDSHIP! u will conquer timing soon!=))LOVE YA!:D

2008-07-30T20:39:00.005+08:00
yay! once again,THANK YOU GOD!!!!;DD hahas..i manage to have a super big BREAKTHROUGH! in my napfa! 5 stations! oh my gosh! was just telling my shepherd yesterday that i dun wannn to go for napfa and she told me this: Run BEYOND URSELF or isit something like that? hahas..something like that..she encouraged me that i am running with god! my own target,i cant hit,but with god, i can! hahas..at first have nt much faith in myself de ): but today God's blessings was like SUPERB!! He poured out His blessings! this is the first time that i gt all As (except standing broad jump and 2.4) in my whole entire life! hahas..i made short prayers all the time as i approached each station,before my turn,i prayed and was suddenly so filled with confidence that gold can be done! to glorify Jesus's name! and i gt so faith-filled. The faith was so much in me that i kip saying-IT CAN BE DONE FOR JESUS! In Jesus's name,i can do ____ pull ups/timings! haha! xD
Inclined pullup-ask God for strength. suddenly first few seconds,i did 4! and i was shocked! classmates encourages me!
Shuttle run!-ask God for speed. after i run,Kristal Yang called me a freak!
Standing broad jump(when i aiming for my C)- ask god to push me forward!
hahas...COOL RITE?xD people! God is REAL!!! I cant tell you how real He is unless you cum and experience His true love and blessings! then u will know!:DD

PAST TODAY
Inclined pull-ups 3(E) 17!!!!;D [A!] (it was a damn breakthrough seriously)
Sit-ups 36(A) 31 [A] (hmm,i kinda slackened cuz stomach pain=/)
Sit and reach 42(B) 52!=D [A!] (i did it one whole shot.aimed to break 50!)
Shuttle run 12.7(D/E) 11.23!!!!^-^ [A!] (yipee!never expected it!)
Standing Broad Jump 155(D) 174!!^0^ [B!] (i had never broke 160 before! at first it was 158,asked Mr Sequeira to give 2nd chance!=) )
2.4 run 15:30(B) 17:24=x(E) (ohh...stomachache and leg pain!:x BUT! i am..
RE-RUNNING! tmr i think!:) )

yay!!! God! thank you for ur wonderful blessings! continue to help me in my 2.4 run tmr!!;D
I AM GONNA CLAIM IT BY FAITH! GOT TO GET A B! 15 MINS PLUS AGAIN FOR YOU GOD!;DD IN JESUS'S NAME! AMENNNNNNNN!!!;DDDDDDDDDD

2008-07-28T20:37:00.003+08:00
haiz..i cant be bothered anymore..no offence,but what in the world does the chinese 7th month affects the way we live? what for let all these kind of things affect my plans?! u claim that there is proof behind it,but yet i cant seem to hear anything at all that is relating with ghost?! i wanted my room by end july at first,but due to my busy schedule,i decided to delay it until end august..so that at least i could hv 1-2 wk or so to adapt to the new surrounding and then settle down to really mug hard for my end of years..and now,this festival thing is gna affect my whole damn plans..i want to stay at home to study and enjoy,but then,if ur are gna insist this way,then it defeats the whole purpose of me studying at home and working hard for my end-of-years..then its kinda useless..being stagnant for 1 whole month after getting me on hyper for it for abt 2 wks..well,so great huh? and then i gt to wait wait wait..think i gt so much time? never..when exams come,the festival will just be over and i will have no time for it..it damn defeats the whole purpose dun u think so?and my goal is gna drag on for abt 2 months plus huh? i proved it that i had already moved my things all over..i depended on my own for that..doesn't this proves me right again? depending myself on the physical stuffs is better than depending on others..depending on you people,will only let my whole plans,goals,excitement drag on for days,then weeks,then months,then years?!
*i cant stand it anymore*
DO THINGS TO UR BEST LA! its my room,u are nt regretting,but i will

2008-07-21T20:56:00.002+08:00
okays..gimme a break..parents are like damn adding pressure and i cant get it.. i will go and do the things necessary! its not like i am a big baby rite? do u have to kip nagging? i am not deaf like hello? u are my parents..ur kip claiming that ur understand how i feel. do ur think that by kip nagging,ur should noe that it doesn benefit me that well as i will get irritated and pissed off rite. i dunno what the world is ur problem..ur jux kip nagging and adding pressure.. asking me to do this and do that...do ur even noe hhow tough i am facing in life now? friends are there to hear me out. ur claim that everything we can talk as a family. but it doesnt seems like it. i cant stand it any longer.. i just came home from my tuition,i am tired..stop ur nagging will you??

2008-07-20T18:41:00.005+08:00
okays..i am sick and tired of life..seriously..stress from family,parents,group,homework..sometimes i wonder why i am so involved..so many things..well,transferred group,so happy. The atmosphere when i stepped into the new group is totally different from the old group. The new group is so lively and heartwarming.sharing life with them is fun.When i really nid to go,i left with smiles on my faces with people waving goodbye.I was encouraged. In the old group,i cannot say much and people tot i was emo-ing,and kip saying: ehh chrystal,dun emo la. and i was like so upset. i already did it in an obvious way,cant ur see it? If i nid to go,black and sad faces will be shown,and i will b asked to stay a little longer,and after which reach home late and my schedule totally messed up. Talking to them makes me feel weird. There doesnt seem to be much topics to talk about. I concerned for them,they ignore me. It doesnt even make me feel comfortable talking about my problems and confiding in them. Everytime i want to talk things,they will ignore me. When i talk,they will seem to be thinking somewhere and not concentrating about it. Even the closest member is also behaving like that too.Sometimes say hi to her,she ignores me,or being so cold.How to trust? Its hard to place trust like this. Sometimes i even find it easier to talk things with my friends in the world. They are concern about me,care for me. Showered love,care and concern. It makes me feel so much more comfortable and that i know very sure that they are definitely there for me. They dont ignore me,they pick up phone calls,reply smses,wait for me,help me and many others that are too much to list. This gives me the feeling of being able to cry out so much easier to them and i know that they are there listening. For example,my leg gt bandaged on thursday. Friday,i felt so blessed having my world friends concerning for my leg,asking me what happen and helping me carry stuffs and go one step at a time down the stairs with me. Whereas the enxt day,i was struggling to ealk,but none of the group members even cared. They dint even bother asking: how's ur leg? they just continued with the others in cliques..i am tired..seriously.

ANNGIE!;D she is my super beloved friend. FRIENDS FOR GOING A DECADE!she seriously rock man! she is the one who is there always to hear my problems.i feel so much comfortable with her. She makes me feel better if i am angry or sad;encourage me when i am discouraged. We support and spur one another on

TAY LILING!;D another funny friend who say silly things!HAHA..she is one who cheer me up!and seeks justice?lol
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KRISTAL YANG!;D bus rides with her are fun! when i am sad,she feels sad for me. I feels happy,she feels happy for me too! i can tell her problems freely too

ALICIA!;DD the siao siao,crazy one. But when it comes to talking about problems,she is there to lend her ears

FIONA LEOW! thanks for encouraging me always! i feel so loved

WEN SHI!;D though i just see you yesterday,but thanks for ur concern about my leg! your laughter yesterday was funny!

DAWN!;D hehe..thanks for being so encouraging and loving. I am showered so much with love! blessed to be in the same team as u!

MELISSA! you never fail to smile!=) and always opening up to me!

RUI ZONG!;D my dear di di! u are also another one that brought smiles into my life!

THANK YOU PEEPS! I FELT SO BLESSED AND LOVED TO HAVE YOU PEOPLE IN MY LIFE!=D

2008-07-16T22:18:00.001+08:00
yay!! anybody free for CLIQUE HERE?! hahas..its gonna be a real cool time as you will be watching a drama performance!! haha..and of course to see me! xD hahas..anything can tag at the tagboard! =DD

2008-07-08T22:04:00.000+08:00
rawr! god! i am tired! give me strength god!=)

2008-07-06T16:38:00.003+08:00
hello..hahs..using han yew's laptop to blog..hahas..want to blog friday,my oral was screwed..stupid chinese la! left hand i go say right hand..stupid rite? in the end the topic so easy,is something like people give other people 's info without their permission,then talk about what you feel about it.All the things in my mind were all in english..then so stupid,out of no where,i go and say WHETHER.so stupid rite?xD okays,thn met ying jie and went shopping together as she need to buy present for her friend..so funny! she bought a cheap pillow! so cool rite?xD it was a nice time with my shepherd!~ whee~~ =DD

2008-07-02T21:16:00.002+08:00
hahas..today school was quite ok..my cough is recovering! thank god for creating so many different kinds of medicine! haha..this is the equation for my sickness
RECOVERING FROM COUGH->MEDICINE+HONEY SWEET+PRAYER!!!!
hahas..no strepsils,no nid waste money see physicaol doctor,i gt a great doctor from heaven above!! teehee.. xD this is a great privilege of having jesus in my life! i can save money!xDD
thanks to all who prayed forme! Lin Lin,Dawn,Ying Jie,Han Yew,Bern,Javin, and KRISTAL YANG!xD hahas..so funny,she is not a beliver,but she is so cute! she prayed for me!!=DD

2008-07-01T21:33:00.002+08:00
yay! hahas..gonna blog about my quiet time today! hehe..
passage read: exodus 7-8
i learnt that god can create many many miracles like how He did in front of the Pharaoh. He made use of Aaron and Moses to help save the people out. Pharaoh's heart was hardened towards the many miracles done in front of him as the magicians could do them too. In the same way,is our hearts hardened because there are other things happening that we tend to find that it is a co-incidence? these 'coincidental things' are just distractions to distract us in our walk,but its how we stand strong and keep remembering that it is god who bless us always,and its not by co-incidence..COUNT HIS BLESSINGS!xD

2008-06-30T21:07:00.002+08:00
Well,now my dad has turned discouraging too..i am like so nice to just read out what my teacher has wrote to me. and then,my dad says: this shows ur standard is very low..WELL,WHAT AN ENCOURAGING STATEMENT! and i am not just willing to let my dad see the card, and what my mum says? another ENCOURAGING statement-- gave a sigh and say"没有救了"then i ask her what thing,she said-"看一下也会死ah" is like damn it,i am like gonna lose hope on them

2008-06-26T21:16:00.004+08:00
okay..today was a sad day..sandy departs to nanjing for her studies..hai,our 2 years of classmates had been extended as she goes overseas to study..i cried..i dunno why,tears just roll down my eyes..i had shared life together with her when we were still 2 very close friends. I can never forget how fun it was together as we go crazy together and doing things together. How we supported one another together too. Crazy memories kept between us,everytime when people leave,i realised how important they are in my life..Each and everyone has a unique life and memories shared together. For mine and Sandy,it went through a period of trust. After which at the airport,recieved a news that one of my friends had met with a car accident. I heard that it was quite bad.But thank God she is safe and ok=) At that point of time,tears welled up in my eyes.I could not send Sandy off,seeing her into the immigration area,and i nid to leave for caregroup. Time past so fast that i could not even see her in due to her fligh delay of 1 hour.I also felt so sad over the sudden news of the accident.I went to caregroup in a very upset mood and started crying until i held control. Sorry people(chung cheng peeps) that i somewhat disrupted ur games and ur 'high' mood. Really sorry.